ObsessiveRandomDisorder

2008-10-18T00:46:00.003+08:00

Maa, hisashiburi, ne?

I am back here only for the sake of

I-need-the-links.

Have moved on to somewhere else to totally fangirl over Arashi and NewS. And write yaoi fanfictions. (Sakuraiba, anyone?)

If you know who the fck I am, you'll know my livejournal.

*is in love with LJ cuts*

Anyway, I am now doing the following:

Learing Japanese
Watching my beloved J-dramas
Making graphics (like hanging cards cause I can't find any Arashi or NewS ones)
Trying to cope with school and shizmo
Stuff

Anyhow. I'm super amused about a comment someone said about KAT-TUN's Akanishi Jin.

Looking at my Jin hanging card, a classmate of mine casually said. "He's so ugly."

ROFL. Maan, I think MatsuJun would be happy to hear that, ne?

So bring on the Jin fans. KAT-TUN love avalanche.

Right.

Ja ne~

Anata wa honto ni baka desu. Ne?

2008-09-07T18:05:00.005+08:00

JAPANESE CRAZY.

Y'know, I guess this isn't a very good time to decide to start blogging again. It isn't a very good time at all because for one, EXAMS are freaking around the corner.

Wonderful, Bernie, here comes the exams and WHAT!? you decide to freaking BLOG again!?

To show how much my brain has disintegrated to mush, my spealling of beacuse and other words has all gone mumbo jumbo.

Thing is, I want a new skin, like omg, I'm the most undecisive ever. My spealling is mush, my brain is fried and here come the exams and here I am WANTING A NEW DAMN (blog)SKIN. Y'know what? I'm going to use this as a platform to whittle away my time and improve my Japanese through translating shizmo.

Yes, JAPANESE. I'm now officially declaring my relationship with darling Jap-chan. We're gonna go for long walks on the beach, eat ice cream...go to photobooths...ahhh the bliss of courtship.

(Which means, in plain English, I've been watching Japanese Dramas and Variety Shows waay loads now and I'll give my reviews on them a million years later. )

Honestly, I think something seriously shizz wacked is up with me. I've become an obsessed Japan fan. Let me elaborate.

I squealed and was actually gonna jump when I saw Hana Yori Dango Final on the cover of I-Weekly. My Chinese is horrible, I've never bought that magazine before but guess what? I bought it.
I went to KL and instead of buying cheap clothes/accesories (or souvenirs and all that jazz) I spent RM 15o on My Boss, My Hero DVD, Paradise Kiss DVD and a Jap-Eng, Eng-Jap Dictionary.
All the songs in my phone are Japanese
I'm learning Japanese, like, OMG.
I'm conversing in Japanese
I'm replacing f**k with "Yabai" for now.
I'm watching NOTHING but Japanese Dramas and Variety Shows.
I want to migrate to Japan (WTF!?)
I want to work in Japan
I'm envious of people who have been to Japan or who can even speak Japanese
I want to meet NewS, KAT-TUN and Arashi
The first Kanji word I learnt was "嵐", which surprise surpise is Arashi or Storm. (Now whats the Manadarin pronounciation of that? Oh and btw, thats in "fan ti zhi"...I think.)
I'm trying to read Japanese tabloids.
I understood the heading of Bubka's October issue regarding Ohno Satoshi of 嵐.
I've listened to Ai Nante by NewS on loop...for 2 days.
I've watched My Boss, My Hero 3 times. EVERY EPISODE, I DID NOT SKIP.
My Youtube favourites are now overun with Japanese videos.
I want to own many many many Japanese things.
Everytime I notice anything with Katakana/Kanji on it I grin sheepishy. "It's Japanese!"
Japanese is my BF. Lubs loads.
I'm starting to speak in a slight Japanese accent...

There. I counted. BUH BUH BUH BUH BUH.

So for now, I'm back.

Sashiburi, blog.

Tadaima.

I'm home.

2008-08-26T13:00:00.000+08:00

With the evolution of technology, computers have now become an integral part of our lives. It is used in offices and schools worldwide and has become an important tool in lessons. However, with programmes like Facebook and Friendster coming into the picture, is the computer now a frivolous distraction instead of a tool for learning?

IGNORE THAT. English Compo thingy.

I WANNA WATCH HANA YORI DANGO FINAL out next Thursday, 4th September in SINGAPORE.

OH MY SHIZ.

I WANT TO WATCH THAT MOVIE.

2008-08-13T22:06:00.006+08:00

It's a photosplash, damnit. Don't try to understand. Unclickable.

My Boss, My Hero

((Big photos removed...Gawd, they were butt ugly))

2008-08-13T21:27:00.004+08:00

1. what's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
She's a teacher in school.

2. do you ever turn your cellphone off?
Nope, nevar...unless the battery dies.

3. what happened at 10.00am this morning?
I was in school, Literature period...and sleeping. Eeps.

4. when did you last cry?
Monday; watching My Boss, My Hero.

5. what is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Umm...biscuits and bread, I guess...oh and eating it outta the jar is good too.

6. what do you want in your life right now?
Things.

7. do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put your hood up?
I always bring my umbrella around, I hate walking in the rain. But sometimes, when its not THAT heavy, I pull my hood up and walk.

8. what's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Pillow and blanket.

9. what bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts.

10. what does the nicest text in your inbox say?
There's a few nice ones:
"I lub lub you!"
"I love yoooouuuuu."
"I love you too."
"Oh okay. XD man, I miss you already"

ANYWAY. Three guesses for who they're from.

11. do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
No. Fucking. Idea.

12. are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope. OwO;; Why would I be?

13. what was the last movie you caught?
Kung Fu Panda with LSE and Leon.

14. what are you proud of?
Hanya?

15. what does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
"I just started dating Blue four days ago >_>" (WTF? Its THAT old.)

16. what was the last song you sang out loud?
Sorafune by Tokio

17. do you have any nicknames? what are they?
Bernie. Bernie-Chan!

18. what does your last received text message say? who was it from?
"Meet me at the com lab for lunch?" - jade.

19. what time did you go to bed last night
12 midnight

20. are you currently happy?
Possibly. Actually, I'm not very happy, at all. Fuck.

21. who gives you the best advices?
People.

22. do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Yes, used too, anyway.

23. who did you talk on the phone last night?
MYSELF.

24. is anything bugging you right now?
Yash, a lot of things actually.

25. what/who was the last thing/person that made you laugh?
My Boss, My Hero. Com club made me laugh...sorta.

26. do you wear toe socks?
Nope.

27. who was the last person you missed a call from?
LSE

28. have you ever had your heartbroken?
Don't fucking know.

29. what annoys you most in a person?
trying to act like someone who he/she will never be, and fucking changing their attitude so much and not knowing when its too much. Honestly, you're never gonna be like that so stop acting like it. I hate that kinds attitude and gawd, it's pissing me off so much. Stop pretending. We can see through your illusion, we're not blind.

30. do you have a crush on anyone?
Tegoshi Yuya and Nagase Tomoya. You could say its the "OMFG-HE-IS-SO-HAWT" kinds crush. Lmao. Go google them.

31. have you ever done cocaine?
Nome.

32. what is the colour of your room?
beige and white.

33. would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
No, I doubt I'd have the heart to do so.

34. do you believe in the saying "talk in cheap"?
Hanya?

35. who was the last person to lay in your bed?
The ghost of me.

36. who was the last person to hug you?
LSE.

37. did anyone see the last person you kissed?
What. the. Fuck? Naw, no one saw me kiss my teddy bear.

38. do you have a life?
Fuck no.

39. have you ever thought someone died when they really didn't?
Me. I've died inside, or perhaps I'm still alive.

40. what is the reason behind your profile song?
Sorafune. It's stuck in my head, and I love it cause its the ending song for My Boss My Hero and Nagase Tomoya is hot.

41. who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Hah. For some reason, a person with the initials jkkh.

42. last time you smiled?
Today.

43. have you changed this year?
Yes.

44. what are you listening to right now?
Sorafune by Tokio

45. are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
No. I'm talking to myself, if that counts.

46. do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open, honney, if not how'd I see where to walk?

47. is there a quote you live by?
I doubt I live by any quote.

48. do you want someone you can't have?
Lol. I squeal over those Jap guys I name dropped just now. But want them? Naw. Just wanna meet them and take photos.

49. have you ever played an instrument?
Guitar, but sucked at it, then stopped playing due to streaming last year and hasn't played since.

50. what was the worst idea you've had in this week?
I don't know.

51. what were you doing last night at 11.00 pm?
On the com, watching My Boss My Hero again.

52. are you happy with your love life right now?
Lol. I'm happy that its non-existant.

53. what song describes your love life?
Hanya?

54. do the person knows you like him/her?
Lol. Nagase Tomoya, aishiteru! Tegoshi Yuya, aishiteru! Now they do.

55. who always makes you laugh?
A lot of people. LSE, i guess.

56. do you speak another language other than english?
Mandarin.

57. are you blond?
WTF? No.

58. what's your middle name?
I don't have one.

59. what are you doing tomorrow?
SCHOOL.

60. what do you think you are like?
I AM ME.

61. who will you choose to die with?
ME, MY TEDDY BEAR AND I.

62. where have you been today?
School.

63. what game do you play often?
Don't play games much no more.

64. who are you missing right now?
People.

65. if you were to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
Hanya?

66. what are you doing right now?
This quiz.

67. which primary school are you from?
Haig Girls.

68. name 3 colours that you like.
Black. Red. White.

69. what emotion do you like to show?
XD

70. what is life to you?
LIFE.

71. if you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Complain, then get over it and sleep.

72. who did you last chat with in msn today?
Justice.

73. who do you admire most?
Right now? Dunno. Guys with sexy ass voices. Currently lead singers of Japanese bands.

74. which month are you born in?
June.

75. how are you feeling right now?
Dread.

76. what is the time now?
9:56 PM

77. where are you now?
home.

78. what colour did you use to dye your hair?
Never dyed.

79. why are you doing this test?
BORED.

80. what do you do when you're moody?
Sleep, not talk, give a black face.

81. at which age do you wish to get married?
27.

82. who is more important to you?
friends. family.

83. do you think you have enough confidence?
Yah man...but it depends.

84. who is the person you trust the most?
Close friends.

85. do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
yash.

86. if you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
Umm, not sure. I have many dreams.

87. what is your goal for this year?
Get me a L1R5 of about 10 points or below, and study damnit.

88. do you believe in eternity love?
Wha?

89. what feeling do you love most?
Laughing, even though its not a feeling.

90. do you really think it's global warming now?
Yea.

91. what feeling you hate the most?
Confusion. Sadness. Hate. Anger. Depression.

92. do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yeap, too much I think. Some people don't fucking get it/deserve it.

93. do you believe in God?
Yes.

94. who cares for you the most?
Don't know.

95. what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends and family.

96. what'll you bring when you fight?
Vulgarities, and I'll occasionally push my weight around.

97. what have you regretted doing in your whole life?
Some stuff.

98. what would you feel that no one no longer cares for you?
Fuck.

99. what if your stead two-timed you?
Wtf? Asshole.

2008-08-02T00:51:00.001+08:00

Took a quiz.

Common Personality Disorders

Paranoid: Low

Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships.

They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.

Symptoms include:-

Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
Projection of blame onto others
Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
Relentlessly suspicious

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Schizoid: Low

People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact.

Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Symptoms suggest:-

Weak interpersonal skills
Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked
"Loner" mentality; avoidance of social situations
Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
Low sexual desire
Unresponsive to praise or criticism

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Schizotypal: Low

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others.

They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Symptoms include:-

Superstitious or preoccupied with paranormal phenomena
Difficult to follow speech patterns
Feelings of anxiety in social situations
Suspiciousness and paranoia
Odd beliefs or magical thinking
Appears shy, aloof, or withdrawn to others

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Antisocial: Moderate

A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of.

Antisocials tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often aggressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Symptoms include:-

Disregard for the feelings of others
Impulsive and irresponsible decision-making
Lack of remorse for harm done to others
Lying, stealing, other criminal behaviors
Disregard for the safety of self and others

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Borderline: Low

Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon.

Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Symptoms include:-

Self-injury or attempted suicide
Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
Impulsive behavior
Drug or alcohol abuse
Feelings of low self-worth
Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends

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Histrionic: High

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention.

Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Symptoms include:-

Needs to be the center of attention
Dresses or acts provocatively
Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
Exaggerates friendships
Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
easily influenced; highly suggestible

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Narcissistic: Moderate

Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend.

Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Symptoms comprises of many elements, some being:-

Requires excessive praise and admiration
Takes advantage of others
Grandiose sense of self-importance
Lack of empathy
Lying, to self and others
Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty

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Avoidant: Low

Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them.

Often, avoidants will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Symptoms suggest:-

Social inhibition; retreating from others in anticipation of rejection
Preoccupation with being rejected or criticized in social situations
Fear of embarrassment results in avoidance of new activities
Poor self-image; feelings of social ineptitude
Desire for improved social relations
Appear to others as self-involved and unfriendly
Creation of elaborate fantasy lives

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Dependent: Moderate

Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship.

Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.

Symptoms include:-

Difficulty making decisions
Feelings of helplessness when alone
Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
Submissiveness
Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
Unable to meet ordinary demands of life

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Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

While Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder (OCDP) sounds similar in name to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder, the two are markedly different disorders.

People with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards.

They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

Symptoms suggests:-

Need for perfection and excessive discipline
Preoccupation with orderliness
Inflexibility
Lack of generosity
Hyper-focus on details and rules
Excessive devotion to work

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

2008-07-23T17:16:00.003+08:00

Bwahahahaha. InuYasha has finally ended! 558 chapters!

SPOILER WARNING.

The last chapter was reaaaallly cheesy and mushy. It was an expected ending, Kagome went back and lived with Inuyasha happily ever after. Rin and Kohaku are still alive. Kohaku's following Sango's footsteps and Rin lives with Kaede. Sesshoumaru still cares for Rin, sending her stuff now and then.

SANGO MARRIED MIROKU! Like everyone expected and...they have three kids! Shippou's gone to take tests to make himself stronger. He's lvl 7 now in the Kitsune grade exams or something like that.

I have no idea what's happened to Kikyou. I skipped all the chapters and plopped straight to the end. Souta's grown up and his sister is "hot" according to his classmates. LOL!

Kagome married Inuyasha, and she called Sesshoumaru "Onii-san!" and I burst into laughter.

Turns out Sango nearly died in the battle against Naraku, Inuyasha gained a shit load of new techniques, one of which was fashioned my Sesshy himself and then it "evolved" in the battle.

Whoo hoo. Kagome reveals that Naraku has a "secret wish" behind him wanting the Shikon no Tama. That his actual wish hasn't been fulfilled. Beacuse, all Naraku has done is break people apart, make siblings fight and use love against people. So what is his agenda?

I've wisked through chapters 546 to 548. Gonna read more then type it here to summarise.

WHEE HEE. Gtg now, laters.

2008-07-18T00:00:00.003+08:00

EDIT: I have added a new line in the video description because I'm fed up of all the stupid comments.

I'm sooo going to be a total bitch on Youtube.

Don't like what we filmed? Don't make stupid assed comments like we should use "proper Singlish" and that we "insulted" Singaporeans.

Seesh.

" wa piang like so cao ah lian sia =xx u wan tell whole world we liidat de mehhh"

YOU CALL US CAO AH LIAN!? GET YOUR BLOODY ENGLISH CORRECT BEFORE CALLING US AH LIANS. That comment was so contradictory.

"there's definitely a difference between having harmless fun with your friends and recklessly posting a video on the world wide net. did you care to think if you were being jerks by putting your "way to cure constant boredom" on youtube? lala, you did this purely out of fun and boredom so we shall ignore the fact that this was absolutely insulting. loves."

"nice one! i won't take any offence, at all. of course i won't! i shouldn't feel any bit offended at all just because you demand every watcher to not take offence. it's totally fine if i am a singaporean girl and you make all of us look like whores on the world wide net. nope, no offence at all!"

WHORES MY ASS.

And you know what? I've had it with flamers. They get on my nerves.

As I said, I'm gonna be mean on Youtube.

IDIOTS.

2008-07-13T01:07:00.001+08:00

Why do you always cheer me up with just an MSN PM?

2008-07-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

"This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late"

Honestly, I feel betrayed. Well, a feeling sort of close to betrayal but a feeling so complex I've found no better word to portray it than betrayal.

I guess you could create a word equation for it:

loneliness + betrayal + angst + sad = ???

If there is a word to explain that, I'd like to know.

I feel so alone, even the ones I think are close to me aren't even all that close after all. No one tells me anything and when I find out something, no one is there to explain anything to me, I'm left alone. I'm the only one online in the guild. I feel so abandoned.

Have you ever felt like that before? Like you know a person yet not know him/her? Have you talked to someone, felt like you've known that person for so many years and then a day later the person changes completely and leaves you lost and confused?

I don't know who I can turn to anymore. I miss the old days when I would talk to some people on the phone, when I was all smiles and it was so blissful. Where did those days go? Where have those people gone?

Why do the good times pass so fast and the sad times stay with me for so long?

Does anyone even know how I feel? Has anyone even felt like this before?

"Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late"

At times like this, I keep wondering about emotions and the huge part they play in our lives.

Emotions are what make us human, what makes us think, what makes us reflect. Emotions alter our attitude, change our perspective on issues.

The emotion I was most used to was being happy, but lately, another emotion is taking control of my life.

I'm hurt. Angry, sad, lonely and confused. I'm a lost little puppy in a world that's leaving me behind.

Emotions are overwhelming and they affect your judgement from time to time.

Is it wrong to want to turn back the clock of time? Time, the most illusive and precious 'object' of all, more precious than a 24-carat diamond I suppose.

Sometimes I feel invisible, like no one cares I exist at all, because all they do is ignore me. They make me feel like I'm unwanted, as if I'm prying.

Has anyone done that to you? Make you feel so small and insignificant, as if you don't matter to them at all? As if all that you've done for them is nothing?

"No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late"

I mentioned I'd give up a lot for my friends, I'll stand up for them because I care and love them loads. But is it too much?

Are my emotions taking too much control?

How much have you given up for someone, your close friend, maybe. What have you sacrificed? Time? Love? Patience? Care and concern? Money?

If you died today would anyone care?

If I died today, would anyone care?

"The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong..."

Where is the laughter? The joy? The bliss?

Where is the love?

As someone said,

For even the closest of friends betray...

Remember.

***

I'm giving up. I feel like you people don't give a shit about me. Why do I bother? Why do I try to earn your friendship so much? What am I trying to prove? You treat me like I'm invisible. Thanks a lot. I used to love you people to bits. We're from two different worlds- who was I trying to kid!?

2008-06-30T01:54:00.001+08:00

Photos coming soon from B'day celebration.

Did a huge ass blogskin for Nonsensical Philosophy.

Link again: http://www.nonsensicalphilosophy.blogspot.com

Damn tired now. Bais y'all.

Love.

P.S. BERNIE WHY IS YOUR BLOG SO DEAD!?

2008-06-29T19:33:00.002+08:00

My darlings, head over to http://nonsensicalphilosophy.blogspot.com/ for my newest blog for Renaissance Publishing Singapore's Project Blook.

Quick update on my life:

Stuff has happened.
Got a shitload to blog about
Gonna concentrate on Nonsensical Philosophy a bit more
All things come to an end
And its great to be "free" again.

TTFN.

Till another time, then, darlhings.

Love you all~

2008-06-23T21:55:00.004+08:00

I don't get anything anymore.

So I'mma gonna ignore some people cause I'm fucking fed up about some stuff.

Yeah, word, I don't like you.

So stop ignoring me already.

Cause two can play the same game.

I hate you, and yet can't stop myself from wanting to care for you.

I hate you, and yet want to ~~love,~~ like you.

I don't understand myself sometimes.

And I don't want to.

It's nice, not knowing what to do, feeling lost all the time. It's just that, I want to know who you are, like I used to.

[EDIT] I'm missing Prison Break just to type this bit out, so yeah.

You know, I used to be so happy when I talked to you people. Now, I just feel empty. Heck yeah, I don't regret knowing y'all but you know what? Why did I even bother in the first place.

It fucking hurts.

I'm empty.
Hollow.

Thanks a bunch.

2008-06-20T17:30:00.004+08:00

"I can see the light, it's so near now, and so pretty,"

The keyboard was dusty, and she tapped on the keys furiously, manning multiple MSN conversations all at one go. It was the time of multitasking. Most of the time, she loved technology for its perks and conveniences but this time, it was a pure pain in the arse.

"It's just another outlet for teachers to pile on the homework from hell," she muttered, clicking her mouse furiously from tab to tab in her blood red Firefox window.

"Damn this stupid thing," she complained, frowning.

Papers were strewn all over before her and pens were lying aimlessly and acting as paperweights. It was said to have been impossible to die from doing Maths, but this one girl found it to be not so impossible after all.

"Raymond keeps talking about his 'Maths from hell' but why haven't I seen this kind of Coordinate Geometry questions before!?" she groans and proceeds to throw a pen onto the stack of papers in anger.

Her brain, she concludes, has turned into mush and therefore, it is the explanation for her not being able to think- she failed all of the tests.

"Whoop de doo," she sings, then curses.

She tries the tests again and again, changing an answer here, and an answer there. She redoes the calculations, tears several pieces of paper (don't worry, that goes into the recycling bin) and then goes off to get food.

"Food helps me think," she assures herself.

Or does it? She returns after hurriedly shoving down Maggie Mee, instant noodles, and attempts Coordinate Geometry again. This time, with not so dismal results. A pass. She heaves a sigh of relief then goes back to check.

"Where did I go wrong," she hums, singing that song by The Fray.

"Had I known how to save a life," she croons, in the midst of wondering how to save her own life, let alone some friend's.

She spots her Biology and Chemistry worksheets in the mess and sighs. Everyone in various states of being completed. 10%, 35%, 40% and 1%.

It was going to be a long road ahead, one she hoped was not less traveled.

She sighs. There were more things to do, and it didn't help that she was getting cramps every few seconds.

"Grawr," she exclaims.

"This sucks,"

She then promised herself that she would complete ALL the homework.

The light was far away (or so it seemed) but it was edging closer and closer to her, close enough that she could feel it, and maybe, pass through.

God forbid.

2008-06-18T22:50:00.009+08:00

Mommy finally got me a black hoodie.

Yeah, I know, so chao late, ain't it (shut up, my mom thinks my jackets fit me fine so she didn't agree to get me one earlier)?

Honestly, I love it to bits.

AND THE BEST PART IS THAT IT WAS DAMN CHEAP TOO!

Shan't tell you how much it is.

I'm gonna wear it tomorrow to Rays and on Saturday too!

Anyway, lotsa updates.

Starting with....

SAWA'S HOUSE, 31 MAY 08

Yeah. Guitar Hero, crazy ass stuff.

MANGO PUDDING (again), 17 JUNE 08

Yummy ass stuff.

PB BARBEQUE (BBQ)! 16 JUNE 08

MEDIACORP INTERNSHIP/ATTACHMENT 3 JUNE - 13 JUNE

PART 1

2008-06-16T11:48:00.003+08:00

I just like how that photo turned out.

Is LSE in Malaysia? She's not answering my SMSes.

I'll blog something substantial real soon. Till then, I'm a nutcase trying to learn Chinese through watching non-English-subtitled Taiwanese variety shows.

I want to watch You Don't Mess With The Zohan, doesn't everybody?

I'm a bundle of crap rolled up, then squished into a lump of joy.

Sometimes I like now messy my hair looks in the morning. And sometimes, my hair looks so flat after it dries naturally I think I got an insta-rebond.

My holidays have been fun, to say the least, and now I need to do the homework I haven't even touched.

That is, after I get a barbeque over and done with, swallow up the charcoal and splash water on the fire. Obliterate the litter and make sandcastles.

And then stop talking like the Singlish using person I am and start using a good, British-American accent, if that even is possible. Who am I trying to kid? My Singlish is embedded in my brain.

I suppose I could try and improve my vocabulary, stop spouting words I don't understand and start spewing incomprehensible intellectual rubbish, if that even makes any sense.

I think I'm going bonkers, I see double all the time, which makes me especially happy when there's money on the table.

Must be all the Vodka, Gin and Whiskey I've been downing into my system.

Who am I kidding? A sip of wine and my life's topsy turvey.

Don't try to interpret anything I'm saying.

I'm getting a year older in T-minus 5675770986734532763 minutes.

Yea, I actually counted.

Honest.

2008-06-14T15:49:00.002+08:00

MINI GOLF IS AMAZINGLY FUN.

Lilliputt tooddayye!

Dre dre's Dad paid for me! Thanks Uncle!!!!

Played with Andre and Audre!

Andre's a hyperactive ball of activity!

There was a not nice black faced uncle who made Andre mad, and he was so unreasonable! (The uncle, not Andre)

Andre accidentally wack the ball over to that guy's hole, and it only hit the hippo and not him or his son! Andre apologize like, 5 times and the uncle just give him black face.

Like, so wtf lo! Mean uncle.

D=

2008-06-13T11:32:00.002+08:00

Annnd...this is the story. *smiles*

12/06/08 Run up to Full Mobile Portability Initiative
/pkg

From tomorrow, mobile phone users will be able to switch service providers while retaining their existing number.

As our newsdesk finds out not everyone is clamouring to switch
operators.

===================================

Previously, a mobile phone subscriber had to hold separate numbers should he decide to switch between operators.

With the number portability, users will now find it less of a hassle to update their family, friends, and business contacts about a new number.

But not all are attracted to this option.

Actually I haven't heard about the scheme.

I don't know.

It doesn't make a difference to me.

Though there are some who have decided to take advantage of the scheme.

I think the old scheme is rather troublesome because you have to have two phone numbers. Now if I want to change, if M1 doesn't give me a good service, I can change to StarHub or to Singtel.

You don't have to tell everybody like, "Oh I changed my phone number." Better deals, free-of-charge.

The public can look forward to a wide variety of better deals in the coming weeks as competition among mobile operators has intensified.

At the PC Show for instance, SingTel and StarHub are snagging users with plans that come with free smartphones.

But even with plenty of promotions around, some are still reluctant to change.

I guess as far as I'm concerned there's no problem with this StarHub so I just carry on and on. I don't like to keep on changing company.

I'm very reluctant to change my service provider because once you use it, it gets very hard to change.

Too much trouble. Apparently I have to get out of my house just to go there and change it.

This report was filed by Bernadette Low and Esther Ho.

//end

So can you guess which sots (soundbites) were used?

Bet you can't. =3

2008-06-12T14:04:00.004+08:00

Mobile Portability Scheme Phone Surveys.

I am sooooo evil. We (Esther and I) were tasked to interview say, 20 people. I went around calling everyone....and some were hilarious (in a bad way), and some were good.

The scheme basically allows you to change service providers (eg. StarHub to M1) without changing your HP number.

Good, huh?

So I'm posting the transcribes of the people I surveyed. HEH HEH HEH. Compare for yourself.

Natalie Wang,
Um, M1. I don't know what my plan is. It doesn't make a difference to me. Yeah, I don't think there is a plan. Definitely. Because I want the free incoming and 300 free messages that Singtel's providing. I don't care if I change, really. No. Because my parents are going to confiscate my phone anyway. I honestly don't know. Yeah, then I think students will be changing.

Natalie was my first darling interviewee. Disappointing. Really. =(

Jerrald Yeo,
M1. Well, basically the provider is actually quite fine, but around Aljunied area which is around my house, I don't really get the frequency. I mean like, there's very little frequency around my house. Yeah. Well, to change means I have to either find a new number or get a better plan which is not really currently coming out at all yet. Yeah, something like that. Of course, I mean it's a worthwhile deal. Let's see, Starhub might have a better frequency around my area. I mean like, who know what it might be. Because like, how should I put this, well basically let's just say this, there's really no big difference between the two providers, just that the difference in the service they provide and the quality. Yes, the thing is that the thing might be cheap, might be not
much of a hassle but there's the cost price of it anyway. Basically following what the people demand for.

Justice gave good answers, elaborated quite a bit. Not sure if there are any soundbites that J might wanna use. So yeah.

Leon Tai,
M1. Yes, quite. No apparent reason. I just like their cheap charges. I don't think so. Because, my dad is under Starhub and he has some problems currently, and M1 has served me well for the past year. Nope. The first reason, I think the PSP (PlayStation Portable) is kind of overrated. And secondly, I don't really like Singtel. Nope. Yeah. To give more attractive offers, like try to keep their rates low, and cool-looking advertisements. I don't know.

LOL. The PSP is NOT overrated! I want one! (Give me for my birthday lah, Leon) Tsk tsk.

Tiky,
Singtel. Yeah, I guess so. I'm not much of a complainant. I don't know. Actually I don't think I want to change. I'm very happy with what I have now. Because I don't like to change. Yeah. (Bernie you picked the wrong person to ask.) Uh, depends la. Right now I'm getting 500 free sms and like, 100 minutes talk time. If they got a better offer, from other services then I switch la. Ya. Well, better value for money basically. That's what everybody's trying to do isn't it. That's why, Singtel and Starhub and M1 and all like RAWR fighting between each other. (I'M BETTER THAN YOU!) yeah.

Tiky was funny! The "RAWR" bit. Refreshing interviewee, can't believe I said the same stuff to like, 13 people.

I was like, "The mobile portability scheme...basically *yada yada yada*"

Mr John, from UK, 18mths in SG
I've got Starhub actually. Actually I'm quite satisfied I haven't got any complaints. It's quite a good service. I'm not thinking of changing at the moment. Well, I'm happy with this service already so you know, from my point of view, there's no need to change. Yep. Actually I haven't heard about the scheme, and yep I'd be happy to hear about it. But as I said, I'm quite happy with Starhub at the moment. Oh, I really don't know, I really couldn't say. I think most people choose their service providers in terms of price, and also you know, good service, good backup service etcetra this kind of thing.

Mr John. Ahahaha. He couldn't really comment. I seriously need to get more "older" people's comments. WAAAY too many teenagers.

Aldous Adrian
Singtel. Yeah, kind of. I didn't really give much care. Yeah. It depends. Probably in a conservative way. Of course. Well, it depends what you can get out of it. No. Because I just don't really care.

The first of many "I don't care" people. Aldy was...difficult to understand. I mean, I couldn't tell some bits of what he was saying...so...yeah. Accent too think. And...there was about 1 minute of me going "I don't understand what you're saying"

Lim Hui Wen
Singtel. Yeah, get like 500 free smses and free incoming call, free 100 minutes outgoing, yah. Yeah. Nah. I'm used to using Singtel and yeah, the online services and stuff. Uh no the student plan. I may consider. Depends on which plan offers the best stuff, right? Attractive offers.

Hmm... the last bit, where she exclaimed "SO CUTE!" was cut out.

Rachel Soh,
Singtel. Yes, quite. Because the reception is good. I wouldn't mind. Because other service providers have better plans and stuff. Yeah, I guess I would. Why, because, it's more convenient and it's free. If I want to switch to something more suitable for my needs then I would just do it. Actually I'm not too sure. Ya, I think that they should let people know about it as well, because not everyone might know about it.

Jolin Tan,
Singtel. Okay, not too bad I guess. Er, whether I will change, I think probably not. No. Nope. I would consider if the plan suits me. Perhaps like to have better plans even for working adults, not just for students. Kind of and of course the excess, extra sms they give to the students.

Hmm, good, interesting. Yay.

Jeston Yeo,
I have no idea. Singtel. I have no idea. I guess so. No. No. I just don't want to. Too much trouble. Apparently I have to get out of my house just to go there and change it. Yes. Yes. I have no idea.

Thanks Jeston, very very VERY helpful. *wide sarcastic smile*

Hanis,
I am under Starhub. Yes, I am. Starhub is good, I mean, it's good provider. There are many different stuff, attached to it. No, no. Yes. Well, for one thing, you keep it cheap and easy and, you know, a lot of free and entertaining stuff attached to it. Because most people are comfortable with only one service provider. Yah, and I'm very relunctant to change my service provider because once you use it, it gets very hard to change it. Yeah.

Uncle Francis
I'm on M1. Yes, to date I'm quite satisfied with the services. Well, they keep me up-to-date and they also call me from time to time to tell me any news. I think the old scheme is rather troublesome because you have to have a two phones,like phone numbers. Now if I want to change, if M1 doesn't give me a good service I can change to StarHub or to Singtel. You see, so M1 would have to make sure that they provide good services for me, and also that they would have to keep me as a loyal customer. Well they can continue, you know, with what they're doing. For example, calling me, giving me informed and by explaining to me the recently the moblie portability, what I have to do. If I'm too busy, what I could do, and they keep me informed through the email. And if they can provide value-added services, information and even like, improve the reception or free giveaways for people who keep their services. Then I would think that M1 would be much as a good service provider. Yeah.
=))

Sawa,
Singtel. I don't really care, honestly. It depends if they have better plans or not. Yah. I would use it if there was this plan where I can call overseas. Like StarHub they have their own plans, like, you know, those type of like, one bunch of plans together like the internet connection and the TV (television) and stuff like that. I think those are the stuff which make people attracted to it.

XD

And then...MEAN MEAN me, went to listen to all the interviews like, fast forwarded.

IT WAS SO FUNNY!!!

Especially Jeston. He sounded like a...ROBOT. And Aldy, when I fast forwarded him, I heard "Fuck you". Like, WTF!? Justice sounded like a girl, fastforwarded lah...eh, so does Leon.

Anyway, Sawa sounded, so...cute on the phone fast forwarded. The girls sound cuter, the guys sound...weirder...o.0

And I sounded like a chipmunk.

AWW MAN.

***

We're going out for more random interviews...

ja ne~

2008-06-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

(The picture has NOTHING whatsoever to do with what I'm blogging about)

I think its honestly the stupidest thing to say, EVER, but....

I think I got more vulgar after The Click Five concert.

I KNOW! LIKE, HOW THE HELL IS THAT POSSIBLE!?

Omg. I am a freak of nature. Thanks for rubbing that into my face, I am oh so grateful...NOT.

ITS THE CLICK FIVE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. CLICK FIVE AND VULGAR DO NOT EXIST IN THE SAME DICTIONARY.

Okay, I shall shut up about that. Who the fuck wants to know about my vulgar-ness?

***

I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL.

Honest.

I cannot stand my mother's nagging.

"You not happy, you can move out! I never said you can't!"

>.>

"You think what? This is a hotel? You're turning MY house into a pig sty! Do you think I will allow that!? NO!"

"Your grades are so horrible, you do nothing but play the computer every single day! You never revise your work! No wonder you got two C5s! TWO! WHY DIDN'T YOU GET ALL As!?"

"What kind of people do you hang out with!? One is insecure, the other one is a mental case! I'm going to take you out of Maths tuition. There has been no improvement! How can you study with that insecure girl there!?"

"And now, no computer, you do NOTHING but watch TV!"

So yeah. And look how I turned out.

Pretty good, huh.

MY FOOT.

2008-06-09T16:28:00.002+08:00

I'm hungry and have no idea what I'm supposed to do now. 0.o

Honestly.

It's cold.

I want food.

FOOD, PLOX.

(Mediacorp is cold. Brrr)

{ADDITION}:

I now have something to do. Yay?

Anyway, there are these really funny and nice people in the office. I shall call them J, JM, SF, C and YW.

They crack jokes and all, so its fun.

Psst psst, Esther and I have decided to take photos of all of them and show the whole school population.

We were gonna ambush them...but so far, haven't got the guts to do so.

Its like this,

"JM!!!" *JM turns, and camera snaps*

Me: NYANYANYA. *runs off*

Lol, so childish.

AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Kthx, bai~

2008-06-08T19:00:00.002+08:00

Thats how I felt when I "stumbled" across this site.

http://www.time-to-spare.blogspot.com

Finally, someone's gone and complied the best of the Youtube videos that make you go LMFAO, LOL and WTF!? on one site.

The design's pretty basic and white, but it earns brownie points for at least using proper English.

Like I mentioned, its by Banana bro's brother and his friends.

The tagboard messages are : "OMG, WTF IS THIS CRAP" so don't pay attention to it.

So yeah, basically it's my new waste of time...

Just after Deliverance, Gaia and Blogger...

But yeah, my new waste of time nonetheless.

Gotta go lovelies, Mom's a nagging (as usual).

Bye!

Oh, and once again:

http://www.time-to-spare.blogspot.com

2008-06-08T18:35:00.003+08:00

I know I told my Banana brother I'd do an advertorial for her bro and his friend's site so I'll make this post short.

The unique pageviews have plummeted (by more than half) and I don't care anymore, honestly, duh, expected.

Quick update on my life:

Its busy.
I'm an intern at Mediacorp for one more week.
I haven't done holiday homework
I haven't contributed much for PI. D=
I miss a lot of people

Honestly. I think the one person I've missed hanging out with most when I was busy working last week was LSE (God forbid I turn lesbo one day and rape her).

Anyway. (you DID not just see that last sentence in brackets)

Sorry for being a bitch at Rays just now, Nat.

Short updates. Gaah.

I miss so many people.

D=

2008-06-05T21:14:00.005+08:00

Stupid people amuse me.

...and I dislike (hate is too strong a word, though I'm tempted to use something even more harsh) my mother who is so fucking unreasonable.

My holidays are no longer holidays.

She says the 'computer', a mere piece of metal, is the thing that is causing a rift in our relationship.

Fucking bullshit, I tell you.

She should think it over and realise who or what is really causing the rift.

Gawd.

WHO THE HELL IS BANNED FROM THE COMPUTER DURING THE HOLIDAYS!?

Might I remind her that I actually have certain assignments to complete that are only available ONLINE!?

Pfft. And she wasn't even HAPPY that I was going to Mediacorp for an internship.

"You go for what? They're not even paying you,"

You know what? STFU. Like, please. Mediacorp Radio is FUN (well, most of the time). The reporters there are really nice, and I think we're (me and Esther) are learning loads, and its just been 4 days.

I'm pissed. I get online, which is so fucking rare nowadays and I see that crap on my tagboard.

Thank you very fucking much.

You've made my day.

It's like almost everyday I fall asleep pissed angry and cursing. Or, I leave the house pissed, angry and cursing.

The next thing she'll do is take my handphone away and my mp3.

Fuck.

Oh, she already threatened to throw me out of the house, and every single thing that goes wrong she blames my computer.

Like, What the Fuck.

Please, get a better scapegoat.

Sorry for the rant, just needed to get it off my chest.

FUCK THIS SHIT.

YOU DON'T KNOW FUCK ABOUT ME SO FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!

P.S. maybe I can lock my door now, yeah, so much for privacy!

P.P.S. FUCK YOU.

2008-06-01T23:41:00.007+08:00

Fuck lah, need off com liao.

Blog later, pictures first.

=.= Long story how the hell I managed to go to the concert. Complicated shit.

Sorry Sawa.

Thx for photos, Justice (the clearer ones are from him).

Aiyah, the "mosh pit" wasn't even full. And people were sitting.

It was like, The Click Five.

They ain't MCR, thats all I can say in the 2 minutes I have. Another time. Bye.

2008-05-29T00:20:00.004+08:00

Permabanned (from computer)...for now.

Chick vs Dick: Ep 9-The Pole Dancing Challenge

The funniest of the series (so far). And I bet you horny 'lil boys will get turned on by Kay Kay and Paul's dancing. So watch with door closed, please.

***

Yea, I've been sort of Perma-banned. Mom screeched on how I was using too much of the computer. D=

Well, Leon was supposed to post this for me, but since I've managed to sneak on, I've posted it myself, which also explains the ungodly hour.

Getting banned sucks, but what's worse is the NAGGING. Man, I wish I had a pair of invisible ear plugs because MP3 earphones are waaay to obvious.

I was going to blog about the digital cam and new laptop/handphone I wanted but since I've been banned indefinitely (for the 9078374657 th time) I shan't be able to...yet.

The online good side to this is that I've got the modem in my room so I can still access the net via my laptop. My mom doesn't know nuts about IT stuff, so she can't check my SMS-es or my emails or whatever, which is one of the good sides to this.

I mean, I've heard about people's moms reading all their SMSes and then discovering secret boyfriends or secret male friends that so and so wasn't even supposed to have or that so and so was in contact with a certain "mental patient" (I'm sorry, I just can't help but scoff at my mom's words so please don't take offence)

Ahh well, haven't been feeling the best this holiday. But I can't complain much, got a few events lined up to keep me busy (feel free to join me, okay?).

Church BBQ at THE TANAH MERAH
Saturday, 31st May 2008
5pm to 9pm
$5 per pax

Mediacorp Radio 938Live Internship
2nd to 13th June 2008
10am to 7pm daily

Family Day 2008
Playground @ Big Splash
14th June 2008
7.30am for Morning Walk
9am Carnival begins

Drop me a sms if you wanna go for the BBQ (open to all) or the Carnival at Big Splash (girls only). Thanks!

I guess I still owe some people stuff this holiday, so here's a short list of things I need to get done.

LDS Board (Print stuff for sprucing up board)
LSE's Yaoi blogskin
Treat Nat to "cum fries"
Hang out with Leon (haven't seen him in forever =x)
Study (to make mom happy)
HOMEWORK!

1 month minus 3 days to my birthday!

"GO GO POWER RANGER!" - I still got that sound clip. =3

2008-05-28T15:06:00.005+08:00

Why I 'lub lub' LSE

1. She has a banana. And you all know how much I LOVE bananas!

2. She makes me laugh on MSN.

I'm talking to her about making a blogskin. She says she wants to change hers so I tell her I'll make one for her and she can laugh at my pathetic attempt.

I then tell her I'll do it after my Mom's gone off to bed so I won't be disturbed and she comes back with this dialouge.

She's told me to make a YAOI blogskin.

Mom: Bernie! What are you doing!?
Bernie: Uhh...ah...yeah....
Mom: So you found my hidden yaoi collection in my computer? Damnit!
Bernie: Uhh...ah...yeah....

LMAO and then after that, this happens.

LSE: the show I'm watching is great!
Me: Hmm? What's it called?

*long pause*

LSE: i lub lub you
Me: i lub lub you?
LSE: yes
Me: umm...that's what the show is called?
LSE: no! LOL????
Me: XD then!?
LSE: Air.

LOL.

3. She does crazy things.

She looks innocent here, but LSE does crazy things like this:

And this, wearing two different shoes to school:

4. She dares to be different.

And that's why I lub lub LSE.

2008-05-27T21:59:00.010+08:00

SINGAPORE GETS
SLANDERED

I came across this while surfing http://www.gaiaonline.com and I got really really pissed about it.

The forum title is: "Singapore fines TV station for gay show"

The first screenshot is the first post in the forum. (click for larger view)

SINGAPORE - A Singaporian television station has been fined for airing a show that depicted a gay couple and their baby in a way that "promotes a gay lifestyle," the city-state's media regulator said Thursday.

The Media Development Authority fined MediaCorp TV Channel 5 $11,000, it said in a statement on its website.

The station aired an episode of a home and decor series called "Find and Design" that featured a gay couple wanting to transform their game room into a new nursery for their adopted baby.

The authorities said the episode contained scenes of the gay couple with their baby and the presenter's congratulations and acknowledgment of them as a family unit "in a way which normalizes their gay lifestyle and unconventional family setup."

The episode was in breach of rules on free-to-air television programming, which disallows content that promotes, justifies or glamorizes gay lifestyles, the statement said.

Earlier this month, the authorities fined a Singaporian cable television operator, StarHub Cable Vision $7,200 for airing a commercial that showed two lesbians kissing.

Under Singapore law, gay sex is deemed "an act of gross indecency," punishable by a maximum of two years in jail.

Despite the official ban on gay sex, there have been few prosecutions. Authorities have banned gay festivals and censored gay films, saying homosexuality should not be advocated as a lifestyle choice.

And then, these were the responses that I got VERY angry about.

It makes me LOL @ how stupid some shitty countries can be.

I told this to Justice on the phone and he was like, "WTF!?"

Does this mean that I'm gay and insecure too? I don't THINK so.

And then, came THIS person.

I dislike singapore.
it's TOO controlled.
I've been to a few asian countries, and I've liked all of them. (:
but singapore sounds like the kind of place i wouldn't like to go for a holiday.
so close minded. :C
I feel sorry for the homosexuals there. It must be even harder for them.

Someone stuck up for Singapore saying that the matter was just blown out of proportion.

Then came THIS fella.

Lololol.
Bad publicity for Singapore. xD
I actually really like Singapore. It's one of my favourite cities in the world, but like all countries it has problems. Views on homosexuality is one of them. As are over-the-top punishments. Death Penality for drugs? Honestly? Fail. >.>

There was also this one response, I didn't screenshot it, but it said:

I hope Singapore gets bombed.

And then, FINALLY someone comes to stand up for Singapore!

FINALLY!
I'm so proud of that person. (PLEASE CLICK PICTURE!)

2008-05-27T16:19:00.012+08:00

I am NOT a camwhore, and I can prove it.

1. I do not make stupid faces when I take photos.

2. I do not take photos of myself acting cute.

3. I do not take photos of myself in taxis.

4. I do not take photos of myself portraying different emotions.

5. I do not take photos of myself in the mirror.

6. I do not takes photos of myself drinking (be it tea or wine).

7. I do not experiment and take photos of myself with the different camera effects.

8. I do not take photos with friends.

9. I do not take photos of myself with soft toys.

10. I do not take photos of myself eating any kinds of food.

There fore, I am ~~NOT~~ a camwhore.

2008-05-26T20:40:00.007+08:00

Taken down by request of LSE. >.>

***

I don't want to care about anything anymore. I feel that no one cares of me as much as I care for them (or try to). Its horrible, staring at your phone and wanting to see a nice, kind sms. Sometimes I feel so alone in this world,with no siblings. Life doesn't revolve around me, that I understand but sometimes I guess you'd wish that people would give you all the attention you want in the world.ALL'S BLACK, OR IS IT? Basically, you just want to feel loved. Like I do. I just want to know that no matter how screwed up my life is, or no matter how screwed up I feel, that there will at least be one person to support me and stay with me. Yeah, I know that God's everywhere but sometimes I want someone material to talk to me, someone with flesh and someone who is warm. Its because of that that I've always wanted just one sibling, just one. I shall end this rant here because no one gives a fuck about me anyway, so why should I bother.

***

Went back to school today to submit my Chemistry SPA file and to hand in the consent form and new toned down clip to Mrs Tan.

Did I tell you?

I got an internship at Mediacorp Radio!

I'm deliriously happy.

Oh and guess who won The Arena?

Raffles Institution, like DUH.

Heard about it yesterday.

TTFN.

2008-05-25T00:10:00.005+08:00

TKGS Sec 4 Debate Finals
Thursday, 22 May 2008
4e2 vs 4e8

Motion: "A Society As Materialistic As Ours Will Never Be Truly Gracious"

Was tasked by Mrs Lopez to take photos, "threw" camera to Audre but in the end took photos together.

4e2- Opposition
4e8- Proposition

Opposition 1st speaker- Trishna

Proposition- 2nd Speaker

Opposition- 4th Speaker Mashyitah (Best speaker!)

Proposition

Masyitah

Proposition 4th Speaker

Then whilst the Judges were collating the results, Audre and I got bored so we took these "boh liao" photos.

Lol. Compare Audre's tan line...AND SUCH LOW SOCKS!

*In prefect voice* "Please pull up your socks now!"

LMAO.

Nat's note with Mrs Lopez's instructions.

Audre!

Me! LMAO.

Nat's note. She wrote some stuff wrongly, but who cares?
Mrs Tan announcing the results!

4e8 won, though so many people thought that 4e2 should have won. D=

2008-05-24T23:44:00.006+08:00

I LOVE Hana Kimi- Japan.

Sure, the name changes are a bit confusing after watching the Taiwan one, but it's still great.

Xiu Yu (Played by Jiro Wang) is now Nakatsu
Quan (Played by Wu Zun) is now Sano Izumi
Rei Xi (Played by Ella) is now Ashiya Mizuki
Dr. Mei Tian (The Gay school doctor) is now Dr. Umeda

The start was a bit confusing but it's great that it didn't follow the comic book EXACTLY, like Hana Kimi- Taiwan did.

The guys aren't as handsome as the ones in Hana Kimi Taiwan but the girl is WAAAY prettier. However, because of that, it is actually very very obvious that it is a girl.

I miss Xiu Yu from HK Taiwan. Jiro was great as Xiu Yu. But the Japan version is still way better, so far (and I'm only on Episode ONE).

I'm only watching Hana Kimi beacuse Junjou Romantica 7 isn't out yet and so far, since Naruto Shipuuden got licensed I've lost interest in watching it.

Everyones been raving about the Vampire Knight Anime but honestly, I think its no big deal. The story's getting old, the books take forever to come out and I'm sick and bored of it already. The Anime is just the same old, same old, everything exactly as the book. Whats with so many people just getting hooked on Vampire Knight? Please. It's overrated.

Zig-Zag, on the other hand is underrated. It may just be a Manga about boys and flower arrangements but it has great character development though you wish they'd move the story faster.

Air Gear's been around for quite a while and I love it (for the story, not for the boobs and revealing attire). It's great and suddenly, I wanna roller blade more. Sure, roller blades and inline skates are nothing compared to A.T.s but still, its the closest you can get to "flying". It's inspired me with all the "soar to the sky" and "finding my wings" stuff that you'd see in my writing.

D.Gray Man is currently, by far, my favourite Manga. The Anime put me off, with the draggish start. I don't know, maybe it's just me but I prefer the Manga. The Anime is slightly different from the Manga so sometimes LSE doesn't know what I'm talking about when I discuss it with her.

I still love all Anime and Manga but I shan't wax lyrical about them all 'cause I'd never get this post done then.

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Someone buy me Blaue Rosen 5 for my Birthday? Or get me Zig Zag 6 or 7, if its out by then (or BOTH).

Or, buy me Prison Break Season 3.

Get me any of those and I'd love you forever (more if you get me Prison Break).

2008-05-24T14:00:00.002+08:00

Yes, I know, I haven't blogged in a few days so there's a lot to squeeze into one little post.

I'm in the midst of creating whimsical posts, 2 currently, and in the process of gathering the photos, and writing the content.

So anyway, lets start the blogging.

My Tonkatsu Don set at SSC.

Cookies. My favourite are the dark brown swirly-ish ones. They're dark chocolate and oh-so-delicious. My new sinful indulgence.

My lil Monkey seen hanging permanently in my bag. If you're lucky, he won't grope your boobs, be it man or woman boobies. (Yes, he molests. Beware.)

WEDNESDAY

The weekly lunch thingy with Jade, Jing Yi and Ng Jin.

On the bus back from Parkway.

Then, remember MAO MAO THE CAT TERRORIST? He's become the latest "celebrity" in our ICC group.

Mao Mao and Jadey. One's a cat and the other is trying to look like a cat.

Mao Mao and a sunflower.

Mao Mao can READ!

Mao Mao.

Mao Mao is glaring at you, no, he is not smiling. Only the most powerful and skilled terrorist that can glare and smile at the same time. I know, you're just really jealous.

Brigitte with Mao Mao. She's grimacing because Mao Mao has a bomb strapped on her.

FRIDAY (Thursday is too long to be in this post).

Went "clubbing" with Mom. No, not really.

But with clubbing, there is ALCOHOL (Lol)!

Bring on the Vodka! The Rum! The Whiskey!

Okay, fine, it was just wine.

Step 1: Hold up the glass of wine sophisticatedly, like how they do so in movies.

Step 2: Smell the wine. *sniff sniff*

Step 3: Sip the wine.

Step 4: For a wine virgin like me, mix with 7-Up or Sprite and its BOTTOMS UP!

The after effects of the wine?

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+10000% intelligence and the attainment of LVL 10 Skill, "Upside Down Reading".

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Till next time, TTFN~

2008-05-22T11:34:00.003+08:00

DAVID COOK won American Idol!

But I'm in school and the results were at 10am!

How did I know? The clever way of communication that's called SMS!

Classmate A: I got my dad to SMS me who wins!

And suddenly, when we found out that David Cook won, the class broke into murmuring and our poor Chemistry teacher thought we were laughing at her.

=x

The power of American Idol.

Indeed.

2008-05-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

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The past few days haven't been very eventful besides the fact that its TWO DAYS to the school holidays. (OMFG, YAY!)

I've suddenly got the urge to make myself a whole bunch of customized graphics just for my use on the blog, but I'm very very lazy and my laptop hasn't been very kind on me latety.

I'm going to ring up HP, Hewlet Packard NOT Harry Potter, and get them to rectify any problem they find.

Today was....mediocre. We've been given a new seating plan. I'm seated in the 3rd row of the 3rd column and my register number is 3. Therefore, Wenn has just proclaimed that I should rightfully be in 3e3, not 3e2. Pfft. (And this is the part where we create a video about THE NUMBER THREE)

Recess was boring and lonely with only Wenn as company. LSE stayed in class and Nat hung out with her classmates and of course, Tiky. Sha was in Indonesia and Sam went for recess with someone else so it was just Wenn and myself.

After school, was much better. We had CCA photo taking and LDS was the first CCA. Formal picture was okay, Wenn and myself tip toeing so we could STAND in the second row. Informal was where Tiky whipped out her MCR shirt, pulled it on and where LSE glomped me and I just smiled sheepishly at the camera.

ICC photo taking was about the same, sat next to Brig in the first row, with Jade standing behind me. Informal was waaay cool. 4 people tried to strangle me. FOUR. And Mrs Liew even told us to put on a stupid, goofy face. GREAT! No problem, we excel at that (LMAO)!

After which, Jade, Jing Yi, Ng Jin and myself headed over to KFC at Parkway to have lunch.

Followed Jade and changed the Pepsi to Root Beer. Hmmm, YUMMMY.

Infocomm today was radically lame. We did a video on Mao Mao the Cat Terrorist.

It's funny as hell, and irritating as well.

I'll upload the photos pronto.

Till tomorrow or till I've got more exciting stuff to blog about, see you!

P.S. Playlist is back up! With a few new additions and a few replacements. (Empty and Happy Birthday were replaced) Enjoy!

2008-05-21T20:58:00.013+08:00

TKGS Bi-annual Student Leaders Conference

17th May 2008

Venue: TKGS

I was supposed to be in school by 7am, which was then pushed back to 7:15am and the night before, guess what time I slept? 1am. 6 hours of sleep, before a long day.

Conference was kick ass! The theme was: Lifeline-Stewardship, Succession, Sustainability.

There were about 105 participants from 24 schools in the East.

I guess I was slightly disappointed when I found out that I didn't know anyone in my group (those from the others school) or know anyone from their schools. But oh well, that meant that I'd get to know more people!

At first, when I got to school, I went about helping out then tried to "mingle" a bit, looking our for the schools where I knew people there.

Anyway, the participants starting trooping in, watched them sign the buoy (below)

and collect their t-shirts and watched as the POPs led them to the washrooms (toilet was too much of an uncouth, uncool term).

I remember being a POP and running around 2 long years ago, back in Sec 1, when the Conference theme was "Frequency, be in tune,"

The first time I saw my group, I was like, "Aww man, these people so unenthusiastic."

Christine and I went "HI!" and no one replied or smiled or anything. Was it because you people didn't hear us? Hmm. D=

According to Sally, our group was quite lucky because there was an equal number of guys and girls (from other schools).

Here's the wide variety of schools from which our group came from:

SCGS
St. Anthony's Canossians
TKSS
Nan Hua Secondary
Nanyang Girls'
TKGS
Canberra Secondary
Hwa Chong Institution
Damai Secondary

Our group name was Heartbeatz (cue sound effect: lub dub, lub dub)! And we comprised of mostly upper secondary students with the exception of our lovely group I/C, Christine, and Debbie!

--ICEBREAKERS!--

Honey, I Love You! Was HILARIOUS! That's a photo of our combined groups, (3 and 10, Baywatch and Heartbeatz!) playing that game.

Basically, you need to go up to someone and say, "Honey, I love you, please smile for me," for up to 3 tries. If the person smiles, he/she becomes "it". But if he/she doesn't, he/she will say, "Honey, I love you but I just can't smile."

Siddharth was the only brave man to approach another guy! He approached the VS guy from the other group who resembled Don (aka Wei Wen) for some reason (you can't see from this photo). 0.o

I burst into laughter a LOT.

After that, were the Keynote Speakers, Ms Norma Sit and Mr Martin Tan!

Ms Norma Sit

She talked a lot about women's rights and ended of with saying that she supported Hilary Clinton!

Shh, don't tell her, but I personally enjoyed Mr Martin's talk more! He supports Obama, of course! Mr Martin Tan!

"Leadership is NOT just about people in positions of power but about people in positions of
INFLUENCE. "

And Mattie Stepanek is amazing (his story is so touching)! Google him.

I think I learned a LOT from Mr Martin Tan.

"Don't wait till tomorrow when you can do it TODAY!"

Lunch next! Everyone knew everyone now, and I guess we loosened up more and chatted. But seriously, were the guys like, DIETING or something!? Their plates weren't even like, HALF full.

Situational Thinking Excericise!
It was fun, the video was uber funny! I met Gauri and we were talking about debate stuff, crushing the opposition and things like that. Our groups were the Insurance company.

The poor PARAMEDICS got hit the hardest, being blamed and having to pay the most compensation. I think it was a RI guy that valiantly tried to defend his group and uphold his case.

Anyway, --GAMES-- after that. It was Amazing Race style, so I group only played Humpty Dumpty, H2O and Tangled Up.

Tangled Up was seriously screwed-ish. We tried THREE times and all three times we failed to uncoil ourselves. Aww man.

TEA after that! OMNOMNOM. *chomp chomp*

So after that was prize presentation, and PULSE won 1st! Congrats!

Oh, did I mention one of the groups was called POWER RANGER? I'mma try to recall the group names. (Tell me what they are! RAWR!)

Group ONE:
Group TWO:
Group THREE: Baywatch
Group FOUR:
Group FIVE:
Group SIX:
Group SEVEN:
Group EIGHT: Purple Anatomy
Group NINE:
Group TEN: Heartbeatz!

The Souvenir/Token of Appreciation given to every school! (Nice photo taken by Susie!)

Anyway, we HAD to take a group photo, RIGHT!?

There you go! THREE of em, all quite blur though. =(

Left to right (for all three photos): Eddy, Kang Le, Owais, Siddharth, Christine, Nurul, Elenna, Shan Li, Me, Susie, Yin Ru, En Han and Debbie!

Clever Christine had the idea of taking with the banner! Genius, she is!

Of course, with every conference, there was a HUGE group photo taken! Everyone in their black Lifeline shirts! Hahaha.

I bet you can't spot me.

Anyway, that concludes Conference 2008. It was super fun and we got raving reviews!

Siddharth even said to Mdm Lenny (in the studio) that she rocked! How cool is THAT?

LOL.

I shall end off with a photo of TKGS PB Student Welfare 2008!

Till next time, BYE!

Credits to: Susie, Christine, Tracy and Cheang Ming for PHOTOS!

2008-05-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

STUDENT DOES LAP DANCE FOR TEACHER: CAUGHT IN THE ACT

OMG, this is the shocking video evidence! Click it to watch!

Or CLICK HERE to go to the Youtube link!

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JUST KIDDING!!!!

That was Tiky dancing to "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" by My Chemical Romance.

Hah! I tricked you, didn't I?

2008-05-19T02:19:00.004+08:00

OMG I WON TICKETS TO WATCH PRINCE CASPIAN!

THANK YOU NUFFNANG!

I'm going with Sawa.

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Yeah, that's what I wore.

Okay, so I was supposed to meet Sawa at 2pm, but at 1:38pm, I was still talking to her on MSN so we both agreed that we were going to be late.

Met at about 2:20pm ish, at the fountain at Bugis, was supposed to meet at the MRT but me, the lost little puppy, got lost and Sawa came to get me instead.

Wandered about Bugis Junction and went into Kinokuniya and looked at books on Anime figurines.

Went up to the movie theater place to redeem my tickets. Stood around, looked at the other people there.

I saw Nicole! She was like, "Hey, Bernadette!" I spun around.

"Nuffnang, arh?"

"Yeah! You too?"

"Yup, but I can't find the booth,"

"It's over there," *points* "The first one,"

Lawl. Took 2 "I *heart* Nuffnang" badges.

And whilst waiting to enter the theater, I tried to take a nice, decent photo of Sawa.

This is the result:

Epic Fail.

So I took or tried to take for that matter, a photo of Sawa and myself.

Epic Fail again. Urggh.

So finally we were let in and I took a photo of the poster next to me.

So we got into the theater, and we found ourselves a seat. It was dark-ish and I saw XiaXue! She was with Mike, her bf. I was like,

"Hey, Sawa, look, it's XiaXue"

and Sawa stared at me.

"I don't KNOW who XiaXue is, everyone is staring at her and I don't know who she is,"

I nodded.

"Yah lah, you don't know her,"

"I'm not a blogger like you what!"

Edit: I think we were seated next to ANdystorm. I'm not sure, but it looked like him.

Then she proceeds to SMS someone.

The movie screen! Like, the seats were a bit "low"-ish because there was no steps and it was just a gradient thing so I as hoping real hard that no one tall would sit in front of me!

Sawa's 7-Up which we shared, whoo!

Okay, so the movie was GREAT, and it was FUNNY too!. I think it was awesome and you know what, contrary to what Farah says, PRINCE CASPIAN IS HOTTER THAN PETER!

Sawa was like, "Blue and his friends went to watch it a few days ago and he says Susan's boobs are huge,"

LMAO.

So after the movie, Sawa and I went over to Doughby Gourd (HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU SPELL IT!?) to meet Jerome, Cope, Justice and whoever they were with.

Watched the professional Cope play Para Para then we all headed to the nearby Nasi Lemak stall at Dohby Xchange to eat.

Took random photos, talked about stuff.

Sawa

Thats Justice "Doing-the-Justice"
Jerome

So yeah. I'm lazy to blog about more. TTFN.

2008-05-18T17:50:00.028+08:00

TKGS Literary and Debating Society SEC 4 FAREWELL 2008
13th May

Great. I've finally got time to update this post. I'll write a nice detailed account okay? And Tiky's dancing video (the first one) is up on Youtube already and in my latest post (Tuesday, 20th May 08).

So on 13th May, us LDS-ers gathered in Malay Room 1 for the epic Sec 4 Farewell, which was super epic as there were only FOUR Sec 4s in LDS.

Audre and LSE were screaming at me from the second floor (I had Prefectorial Board stuff) as Tiky was the ONE AND ONLY Sec 4 present...at first.

So that was one half of the seniors who turned up. Only 2 turned up, maybe on account of IR.

That's TIKY, btw.

Nat and Deepika and the rest of the D.E.P. girls put up a play, Marzipanzel...
It was pretty screwed up, no one was really listening, the D.E.P girls forgot their lines and threw in some improvised words that consisted of nothing but "You Bitch!"

Thus, Tiky wasn't entertained and Deepika angrily confronts her.

Donuts were graciously sponsored by Nat's mom and eaten up really really fast. They were yummy, okay!?

LOOKIE! WE WANTS FOOD. NOW.

Audre and myself, gorging on donuts.

The CREAM. Oh gosh.

Audrey and donut!

DON'T READ!

OKAY OKAY, I GIVE UP. I'm lazy so there won't be anymore captions. Sorry.

Tiky ate this donut in the video. It's going on Ebay for $0.50. Any takers?

MICHEAL SCOFIELD JOINED US! YAY!

GROUUUP PHOTO!!!!

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2008-05-16T14:00:00.004+08:00

So today is "treat to cum fries" day and LSE can't make it. She's got her Interact Installation so Wenn and I tried to find someone else for me to treat(OMG, ain't I so kind?).

Unfortunately, no one else could make it and Audre backed out the second she heard "Geylang" pop out of my mouth, which then prompted me to say (loudly): "Hey! Geylang's not so bad, okay!? I live there!" (Mind you, I just stepped into the school library) Or near there, for that matter.

I think the school librarian has a love hate relationship with me. Sometimes when I'm good, I'm in her good books, on all the other times, I make a huge ruckus and she wants to kick me out so bad.

Like today, for example, I was using the computer in the library whilst waiting for the Center Of Excellence (English) Workshop to start, and then she stared at me and said, "The library is closing now,"

I gaped at her and stared. "Why?"

She angrily glared back at me, "Go look outside the library and READ THE NOTICE,"

So I did, and then I went back into the library looked at her and simply said, "I'm in the workshop," and stayed in the library to use the computer.

About say, 15 minutes later or so, Le Xuan joins me and we help Mrs Loe arrange chairs. Wasn't that SO GRACIOUS of me?

I was being super hyper, noisy and making a whole load of noise during the workshop. We got split into two groups and there was this one St. Patricks guy in my group. Guess what was my first impression on him?

"WTF. Natalie will absolutely HATE him,"

And he tried to hit on Audre, we (Audre, Le Xuan and I) think. He was lower secondary...does Audre look THAT young!? Or maybe he was just being polite.

On the subject of looking young, I asked Mavis, a girl from Damai in my group about how old she thought I was. She hesitated.

"Aww come on, I mean there are only four choices! Sec 1, sec 2, sec 3, sec 4!"

She looked at me, contemplated for a bit, then said very slowly, "12?"

I gasped. "I'm...15!" and then proceeded to say, "It's okay, I look young," *wide grin*

CHOCOLATE CAKE! There was super yummy chocolate cake as refreshments and I went around telling people to take cakes by saying (so very in-their-face-ish):

"THE CAKES ARE SCREAMING 'Eat me!', 'Eat me!', and the chocolate cake is super yummy!"

LOL.

Oh yeah, and the girl who came from GMSS knew Jeston, aka Justice's uber irritating younger brother.

She's in Drama too, it seems.

I rushed home at about 5:45pm, bathed, grabbed my library books and convinced my Mom to let me go out.

Met Wenn and Justice and treated them to "cum fries". Nothing much really happened. Ate fries, went to library, slacked, me wanting to sleep.

Tired, very tired. And I need to wake up at what, 7am and be at school by 7:15am tomorrow.

Yeah.

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P.S. I FINALLY HAVE ADS FROM NUFFNANG! YAY!

2008-05-15T08:25:00.013+08:00

This post is for Nuffnang!

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The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian

(click the picture/poster for the link to the website)

Everyone's been waiting for the sequel to The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, and now that it's gonna be out soon, who doesn't want to view it (obviously not me) ?

So I headed over to the website and watched the trailer for it (which was awesome, btw), which can be seen in the following screenshots:

Left to right: Edmund, Peter, Susan, Lucy

The trailer's really good, and hey, what better reason to watch this movie?

My mid years are over, the crummy results given, and honestly, my brain needs a well deserved "vacation". It's been used waaay to much my brain has forgotten how to register the word "FUN". It's FRIED. D=

And I can't even remember the last time I watched a movie in a theather. When was it? OMG. I recalled and you know what? The last time I went out for a Movie with friends (as in an actual outing where I paid for my ticket etc.) in a theather was 14th May 2007. ONE YEAR AGO. Isn't that so pathetic?

I've just been so caught up with grades and moving house.

That's why, Nuffnang, you should give me tickets.

As an after exam celebration
An early birthday present
A way for me to "bring my fun back"
And, as Farah pointed out to me, Peter is hot.

And for you guys, head over to: http://www.fighttosavenarnia.com.sg to check out the trailer!

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Please?

2008-05-14T22:45:00.006+08:00

I'm in love with a series. It's taken me quite a while to get my hands on all the whole trilogy. I read the first book a year or two ago, and it's been embedded in my mind all this while.

And just a few days back, the NLB came over to school with books and lo and behold! There was book two and three, staring right at me, screaming "BORROW ME!"

What's the series, you ask?

MIDNIGHTERS by Scott Westerfield

Book ONE- The Secret Hour

Book TWO- Touching Darkness

Book THREE- Blue Noon

The Midnighters, basically, is about a group of 5 teenagers, Rex, Melissa, Jessica, Dess and Johnathan, who are the only ones who know about the secret "extra hour" at midnight.

Each have their own special abilities during the blue hour, which they use to help them fight the evil, or the darklings.

The special thing is that darklings love the number 12, and all its multiples while the number 13 and its multiples scares the shit outta them.

Improve your vocabulary with all the 13 letter words that appear in the book!

LOL.

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The Mas Selamat poster fell on the road, oh poor thing. (Random, much?)

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Anyway, today, as usual, Jade and I went to Parkway for lunch before ICC. And, as usual, Jadey took a photo of me eating (or staring at my food)!

But this time, it's different! I now have a photo of Jadey, and her BEEF NOODLES. Jadey, jadey, jadey and her lovely beef noodles. She loves it so much she eats it EVERY WEEK.
Woman! Eat something other than Beef noodles, lah!

Anyway, we bought "han jing pang"s (buns filled with either green bean or red bean paste or eaten plain and salty) and Jade bought a "butterfly".

We wandered about Parkway for a bit, looking at stuff, clothes and being lame. Headed to the $1 bubble tea shop. Jadey bought her Durian Corn Ice Blended and I got Honeydew Sago Ice Blended.

"Eh, Jade, you drink durian later your mouth stinks,"

"Exactly, then Mr Sng won't ask me questions,"

"Lol! Yeah!"

"When he asks me a question, I'll go 'HAH!?',"

"And then, when he smells your Durian breath,"

*makes crinkling nose motion*

"Urrh, nevermind Jade, I'll ask JY instead,"

*and Mr Sng runs away from fear of durian breath*

And the uncle on Bus 197 refused to let us up as we had the drinks in our hands, so we hopped onto 43 instead.

Got back to school on time, and headed up to the computer lab for ICC.

Ahahahaha. That's me. XD

ICC was okay, Farah's the new Level Coordinator!

Today, we were supposed to make a short script and film it for shot practice. Our camera ran out of battery, uggh. So we didn't get to finished filming everything. AWWW.
Fooled around then, and Jade went on a photo taking rampage. She says this photo of me looks like I purposed posed for it. But all I was doing was talking about the 3 main characters in our short drama.

I love this photo of me using the computer, ahahaha.
Jing Yi!
Brigette!
Jing Yi and Brigette!

***

So yeah, got my results already, all of them.

I'm super happy with my Literature. Other than that, the rest are crap. Crap, crap, crap.

Shhh, shut up about it NOW, Bernie.

Anyway, Friday is MY turn to treat to "cum fries" and OMFG, Saturday is PB Conference!

>w<;;

2008-05-13T00:06:00.003+08:00

Quizzes.

Couldn't resist doing them! Gosh.

Find your Celestial Choir

What type of Fae are you?

You Are a Werewolf

You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky.

You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster.

Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde.

But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural.

Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature

Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control

You play well with: Vampires

What Kind of Monster Are You?

Your Inner Color is Yellow

Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you.

You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one person who makes you feel safe.

Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actor.

What's Your Inner Color?

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?

You Will Die at Age 76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Fire

You are intense, internally driven, and passionate.

Your emotions are unpredictable - and they often get the better of you.

Both radiant and terrifying, people are drawn to you.

At your most powerful, you feel like the world belongs to you.

Why you would be a good superhero: You are obsessive enough to give it your all

Your biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers

What Should Your Superpower Be?

You Are 68% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.

Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.

But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.

You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

You Are 68% Grown Up, 32% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.

Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

2008-05-12T19:30:00.008+08:00

MOTHERS DAY!

Omg, yeah, it's late.

Bought that $6.90 thing for Mom from Inbox! Here's the receipt for PROOF.

And I bought...

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A PRETTY FEATHERED ROSE! (EVERYTHING is made of feathers) Awesome, isn't it?

We didn't head out for dinner or anything fancy. Just quality time together (in front of the goggle box, no less).

My Mom and I

***

I'm FAMOUS, yo!

On a darker (sadder, depressing) note, I got back my Social Studies (SS), History Elective and Additional Mathematics papers today.

I was deliriously over the moon for Social Studies. I did far better than what I expected and that helped pull up and measly and pathetic History Elective marks.

For SEQ (Structured Essay Questions, part a is 12 marks and part b is 13 marks) I got a measly 4 marks and 5 marks for a total of 9 marks out of a possible 25. So my total History marks was 54/100. Horrible.

It's no wonder my teacher kept glaring at me, shaking her head and telling me to study (and asking me why I didn't).

"WHY DIDN'T YOU STUDY!?"

She says I was lucky my Section A pulled me up so I managed to pass.

But thanks to my SS, which I'm so thankful for, my combined Humanities grade is now 67.

I guess my History was expected and I did deserve it, seeing that I really didn't study very much. See Bernie? You reap what you sow. And this is the part where my Mom chimes in with a "I TOLD YOU SO!"

Anyway, A Math no improvement from Term 1. Still C5. I'm pissed at my stupid careless mistakes. Oh well, no point crying over spilt milk.

***

On a more light hearted cheerful note, I'm even more in love with Mozilla Firefox! I downloaded a theme and it matches my BLOG perfectly down to a T!

Here, take a look!

Beautiful, ain't it?

I know, I know.

***
Lol. Was exploring the Omy Blog awards categories and I saw this under "Local Celebrities".

Milubing spam.

Turns out there's Jiro, Wu Zun and Ya Lun spam for "Overseas Celebrities."

I'm shocked.

OwO

***

2008-05-11T21:30:00.011+08:00

I'm bringin' Bernie back (yeah)

Them other people they don't know how to act (yeah)
I think I'm special... you just don't get that fact (yeah)
So turn around and and I'll just show you that (yeah)

Take it to the chorus!

***

So yea. I just haven't been ME, lately. I suppose it's mostly because I've been moping about my English results. Yea, tell me about it.

C'mon now Bernie, unleash your wings and soar to the sky.

Okay, so Friday was pretty much down in the dumps and hanging out with Rachel (Soh) then later LSE at Parkway was the highlight of my day I suppose.

Hung out with Rachel, we discussed a little about the songs I was gonna use to lead worship on Sunday (aka today. I'll get to this later). She treated me to Gelato! It was from the shop in the basement opposite LIMS. I LOVE YOU RACHEL! Yummy Gelato.

Mint and chocolate chip! Omigosh, I've missed it so much. OMNOMNOM. Ate it with much gusto then followed Rachel around while she was doing some errands and chatted about various stuff.

Suddenly, I realised since I was at Parkway and had $10 on me, why not buy my Mom a Mother's Day gift? So I smsed LSE and she came down to help me find one, yeah, at like, 8:30pm.

So I headed to Borders to wait for LSE after bidding farewell to Rachel with a hug. So I went in and looked around and suddenly there was this black figure running up to me and giving me a glomp complete with squeals.

So we walked about Parkway, upstairs downstairs, even to Giant. Ended up at Inbox (basement, opposite Ameba) and bought my Mom her gift.

So yeah, fast forward to SATURDAY.

Practice at Church at 10am. The musicians were Ben Koh (Bass), Ian Yap (Guitar) and Anand (Drums). They were really nice. John (Goh, I think) was there too and helped me out with the chords.

Practice was okay, quite enjoyable, actually. The guys were nice to tell me what to do and all.

So these were the 5 songs I chose, in order,

Through it All
I'm Giving You My Heart (Surrender)
Lord, I Life Your Name on High
I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever
Testify to Love

Had a little bit of blunders here and there, had to make Surrender lower cause the original chords were too high for me.

So after that, my Mom came to get me and we went down to the Peranakan Museum again. I think I'll leave that in a separate post, with photos and all.

SUNDAY. (Today)

So yeah. Led worship this morning. I think I looked super nervous cause Anand kept telling me to calm down and breathe. XD We started a bit late cause the "stand thingy" wasn't there and Anand went to look for it.

So yeah, besides that and me forgetting to tell everyone to stand, I think it went pretty well! Testify To Love was slow, slower than usual anyway but I COULD SING IT.

Whoo. Anyway, since that was done and over with, I had Raymonds tuition. Didn't really feel like going at first but I went anyway.

Brandon was being the pervert he is.

"Harry Potter is gay! Dumbledore is gay. So if some Death Eater stuffed his wand into Harry's ass, and then did that pain curse, what was it?"

"Crucio," Jeanna cuts in.

"Ahh yeah, Crucio. Anyway, Harry will start going like, ahhh...it...hurts," *cue Brandon imitating moaning noises*

Everyone stares. WTF!?

Perverted Maths session. Wow. Interesting.

Hmm yeah. I'm making a separate post about Mothers' Day.

Till then, catch y'all later.

P.S. Oh and Justice, I WANNA SEE YOUR HAIRCUT LAH.

P.P.S. EH, NOW WHO GOING FOR HILLSONGS WITH ME?

P.P.P.S. CUM FIRES, wtf!?

{ADDITIONS}

2008-05-11T00:18:00.001+08:00

Because it feels like my life is falling apart.

Somebody save me.

***

Whatsername by Green Day

Thought I ran into you down on the street
Then it turned out to only be a dream
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then
I took a different path
I remember the face
But I cant recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Seems that she disappeared with out a trace
Did she ever marry old what's his face?
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then
I took a different path
I remember the face
But I cant recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
I must confess

The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
From so long ago(Go, Go, Go, Go..)

And in the darkest night
If my memory serves me right
I'll never turn back time
Forgetting you, but not the time

2008-05-09T14:13:00.007+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now. (some may not be used)

Do not read the questions until you have written down the names.

DO NOT CHANGE THE NAMES and put yourself as your favourite number.

Btw, this was numbered according to who popped into my head first. No PREFERENCE WHATSOEVER.

1. Wenn
2. Bernie (my register number, yay)
3. Nat
4. Ryan
5. Tiky
6. Shalin
7. Jade
8. Audre
9. Sawa
10. LSE
11. Samantha
12. Rachel (Soh)
13. Jerome
14. Justice
15. Leon
16. Bridgette
17. Zhi Qing
18. Ng Jin
19. Xiang Ting
20. Ben Koh

Is it a possibility that #13 and #3 will get married? (Jerome and Nat)
Unless the world turns upside down & pigs start flying, they might start dating, and they'd actually meet in the first place. They have never met. So nope, no possibility....yet.

Who is number #16 dating? (Bridgette)
Dunnoo...

What is #1's vulnerability? (Wenn)
I don't know.

Describe #11 (Samantha)
LSE's lao gong/lao po.

Is #6 your good friend? (Shalin)
I'm her "Jiefuu" and she's my "Xiao Didi".

What if #2 and #10 start dating?(Bernie and LSE)
Weird. LSE's already taken my leg's virginity, thank you very much.

Describe #8 (Audre)
Pretty. Cute. LDS Secretary and OMG WTF she does MSP. WOW.

What is your favourite thing about #14?(Justice)
LOL. *bursts into laughter* He treated to "cum fries". Thats good. Honestly, I didn't like him very much on deli and on MSN, cause I found him boring. But its different now, and I think he's nicer in person.

Where did you meet #20? (Ben Koh)
Church. His younger bro, who is same age as me, is LSE's P5 classmate.

What if #9 and #14 start dating?(Sawa and Justice)
COINCIDENCES, COINCIDENCES.
I personally think someone will get deliriously happy, and someone else will be deliriously angry because this doesn't look to be likely to happen in the near future...but that's only MY opinion.

Would you ever date #5? (Tiky)
Nopes. I'd prefer her as my senior and pervosaurus senior as well, thank you very much.

How did you meet #14?(Justice)
I walked up to him at the MRT station and asked him "Eh boy, you quite leng zai (handsome) right? $1 an hour," JUST KIDDING.

Met at MRT, with LSE then went to meet Sawa, Jerome and Cope.

Met him through Sawa on Deli.

-What would you do if you didnt meet #1? (Wenn)
I wouldn't know her.

-What if #9 dated #20? (Sawa and Ben Koh)
It will be impossible because... they don't know each other at all? Plus, Sawa is in no way compatible with Ben Koh, I think.

-What if #6 dated #17? (Shalin and Zhi Qing)
I don't think its possible. Not in a million years.

-Describe #3 (Nat)
Classmate, now schoolmate. Nice hair, same math tuition.

-Is #8 attractive? (Audre)
Yes, no maybe? She is lah, that's why she has a BF.

-Describe #7 (Jade)
Com club friend! We have lunch every Wednesday before CCA! Beef noodles! She's SHORT, naw, taller than me. GRAAAW.

-Know any of #12's family members? (Rachel Soh)
Her younger brother.

-What if #18 confesses to you that he/she likes you. (Ng Jin)
I wouldn't be TOO surprised because it'd never happen.

-What language does #15 speak? (Leon)
He speaks with English.

-Who is #9 going out with? (Sawa)
I have no idea. I think no one, currently.

-How old is #16? (Bridgette)
51, oh no, I meant 15.

-When is the last time you spoke to #13? (Jerome)
Yesterday, aka Saturday, 10th May. (This quiz is back dated as well)

-What is #2 fave band/singer. (Bernie)
She has many a favourite band/singer. She is in love with the songs, mostly.

Crush crush crush by Paramore
The Ghost of You by MCR
Grand Theft Autumn (Where Is Your Boy) by FOB
Caramelldansen by Caramell
Paralyzer by Finger 11

and a whole lot more.

-Would you ever date #4? (Ryan)
No.

-Would you ever date #1? (Wenn)
No.

-Is #19 single? (Xiang Ting)
YUP.

-Would you ever be in a relationship with #11? (Samantha)
No. She's already married to LSE.

-Primary school of #3? (Nat)
Kong Hwa.

-Where does #6 live? (Shalin)
Marine Parade.

-What is your favourite thing about #5? (Tiky)
She be Pervosaurus Senior and she's damn witty.

-Have you ever seen #2 naked? (Bernie)
Of course. I installed a private camera in her bathroom. I'm such a pervert, I know.

2008-05-08T22:00:00.004+08:00

It's quiet, and the path is dark, and she just so happens to be the only one walking on it. Leaves crinkle and branches crunch 'neath her slippers.

It's quiet, with only the sound of the cars zooming past to distract her and the music blasting into her ears which is increasingly becoming like the buzz of a mosquito - irritating.

She's quietly contemplating something, and even while the radio is playing an annoyingly upbeat song (Nine in the Afternoon by Panic At The Disco), a tear rolls down her cheek. She tries to keep the waterworks in check, but it's difficult. Another one rolls down her cheek, warm, wet and it tastes salty as it falls on her tongue.

It burns. The thoughts that triggered the tears burns even as the harmless salty water falls onto the floor, spoiling it. She tries, ever harder to choke them back, but as they fall freely, uncontrollably, willingly now, a smile emerges on her face.

She's crying, being emotional, but she's not sad. She feels love, or maybe wants to feel love, to feel that someone, just one person in the world loves her and wants, or needs her presence.

She feels that way. She hates being lonely, being alone, all by herself. Silence will kill her one day, and she resolves never to live alone, or run away when there is always the option of living with someone, somehow. She likes to know, that there is someone, no matter who, in the room next door.

In the room next door, when she can just silently enter, and sit down, maybe cm apart and just enjoy the quiet companionship. She's weird like that, but just the fact that someone is there makes her let out the breath she never knew she was holding in, it makes her comfortable, relaxed, and safe.

She feels safe knowing someone is there, anyone, that she can depend on, or someone that she can get hugs from and someone to share companionship with her. She just wants to know that someone will be there.

Another tear, falling like a pearl, and another, and another. It's faster now, and coming down like a drizzle of rain. She's thinking again. This time, it hurts more now. She's thinking. What hasn't been said, or done, is what hurts and kills her more. It's not what's been said, done or gotten over with. It's what hasn't been done.

She's disappointed, anguished, irritated, melancholic and frustrated. What hasn't been told, hasn't been spoken of, but shown in actions and looks, that's what stabs her the hardest and hits her at her worst. What she wants to be said, or done, but left forgotten, that stabs her too, deeper, this time.

Regret. It's just another thing she's feeling at that moment.

And all too soon, the elevator is in front of her, and she wonders how she got there. Oh wait, she recalls it now, she walked there. It all feels so foreign to her but she steps in anyway. Her hand pushes the button with the number 8 on it and it lights up to a familiar red.

She's done it countless times now, and it comes to her instantly, a routine. Up it goes, two, three,four, five, six, seven and finally eight. The door opens and she steps out. Her movements are stiff, and her hand automatically reaches for the key in her bag.

She jangles the keys once, twice and then another time. There's something about the sound of metal clanging on metal, like the ring of a bell, that soothes her. Once more, and yet again. It jingles and clashes, small clinking sounds like a cube of ice in a glass. It's hypnotic.

She's in front of her house now, and the key fits into the lock. It turns and the mechanism springs back with a click. She steps in, throws her slippers to a corner and walks first to the master bed room. Is her mother there? Oh yes, she is, watching the news, feet propped up on a stool.

Her mother is in the next room and she flings her stuff into hers and sprawls across the bed.

Some one is in the house, she's not alone, she's not lonely anymore.

A smile, another tear, she grins now and chuckles to herself.

Oh yes, she's not alone. There's someone there for her now, someone, anyone.

She's come home.

A place she truly calls home. A place where she's safe. A place for her to be herself.

Another tear falls, but as it hits the floor, it turns into a pearl.

2008-05-07T15:50:00.004+08:00

Naruto Team 7 Sexy No Jutsu!
Left to right: Sasuke, Sakura, Naruto and Sai

I LOVE THIS!

***

Today was boring. I fell asleep in so many classes. I got caught napping in Biology, opps. Was sleeping for say, 95% of Literature so I didn't really hear much of what was said about Miss Maudie from To Kill a Mockingbird.

BLAME ME FOR BEING IN A HOLIDAY MOOD!

English was a bit boring, and for first period, we had a talk in the hall by our VP. I thought it was going to be about like, stealing in school, or some other thing, like smoking drugs or what not.

Turns out it was about phone scams. RAWR. The talk lasted one and a half periods and it was really warm and stuffy in the hall.

Let's see the situation if someone calls me.

"Hello?"

"Hello? I'm calling to say that your daughter has been kidnapped,"

I'm amused. I'm 15, I don't have a daughter.

"Oh no! My daughter! Can you verify if she really is my daughter though?"

"Yes, and we need you to send $50,000 to this bank account or you'll never see your daughter again!"

"Oh, my precious dear! Does she have her spectacles and braces? And what about her school uniform?"

"Yes, your daughter has her spectacles and her braces are, urh, perfectly fine. She's wearing her green school uniform,"

"I'm worried about her safety, I'll transfer the money straight away,"

And all the while in the background is the sound of some child screaming and I'm trying to contain my laughter.

Or, the lottery scam.

"Hello ma'am. I'm proud to tell you that you have won ONE MILLION DOLLARS in an American Lottery!"

Oh really? I never joined one, and I'm 15, this is too good to be true.

"I'm sorry, I'm not interested in winning your ONE MILLION DOLLARS,"

***

So fast forward to after school. Headed to Parkway with Jade, NJ and Jing Yi for our weekly lunch. Jade had her beef noodles, AS USUAL. NJ and Jing Yi were sick of Jade and her Beef Noodles so they had chicken rice and I got myself a bowl of Fried Fish Mee Sua.

Gosh, I love that.

And yes, that IS a picture of me picking out a tomato from my food. I dislike tomatoes in soup. Eugh.

Anyway, Mr Sng's back to teach Infocomm. I thought I'd be elated but I'm not as happy as Bri probably is.

Well, at least filming is a huge, welcome break from yucky FLASH.

***

We're getting back results soon and it scares me. I don't think I did very well, so there you go. I know for a fact I did horribly for History and blame me for getting into a holiday mood waay to fast. History was my last paper and well, *click* my brain went into shutdown mode and whaddaya know? I wrote crap for my essay question.

Can we please not talk about my grades?

...wait, what am I talking about!? I was the one that brought it up!

Grawr, shut up about the mid years NOW, Bernie.

2008-05-06T22:39:00.006+08:00

WARNING: RANT CITY!

Today was so weird, I don't even think it was today. I don't even understand half of what happened. Honestly.

Natalie got pissed because I mentioned her "angel" of a younger sister, E. She stormed off and LSE followed.

I knew I couldn't be the one to follow Nat.

I'm blunt and I'm in-your-face. So everyone else (Wenn, Tiky and myself) followed behind them a while later.

We sat down on those stone seats to wait for Nat and LSE, to wait for Nat to cool off so that we could all go home together.

Besides, there was nothing much to do at home and Wenn still had to wait for her tuition so we didn't mind.

Nat didn't know we were waiting for HER specifically and assumed we were sitting there for no particular reason. Lol...?

So anyway, when she finally turns up, she sprays water over Tiky as a JOKE and I get pissed off.

"Tiky's been waiting for for God knows how long and you just had to splash water on her? Is that all?"

Or something horrid along those lines. So then, LSE makes Nat apologize and she comes over and gives the fakest most staged apology known to man (to me, anyway).

So, a lot more drama here and there and I'm ranting about it at home. Loudly, and to my mom.

My mom then, does the stupidest thing in the history of stupid things my mom has done to make everything so much more complicated.

Cue Avril Lavinge's "Complicated"

Why do you hafta go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this

and so on and so on.

So my Mom calls Nat's Mom and Nat's mom goes on a rampage of call-everyone-to-fine-the-extent-of-what-my-crazed-daughter-did, or so I heard.

Seriously, what my Mom said was totally EXAGGERATED.

So from Nat's prank that pissed me off, it became,

"Your daughter splashed water on someone and told MY daughter to shut up!"

Specifically, what Nat said was "Keep your comments to yourself," but to my mom, that just equates to a Shut Up.

Honestly? It was all a huge, huge, misunderstanding. Like, WTF? It scares me to think about it.

But my MOM? OMFG. Arrgh. She's making things just uneccessarily complicated and horrible.

Tch. I'll shut up about it. And Nat, if you're unhappy with this post, or Tiky, Wenn or LSE, any of you for that matter, TELL ME.

***

So, Change.

Change is inevitable, unavoidable, its the stepping stone to the big E word, Evolution.
It's scary, looming and you can't help but dread it.

There is good change and bad change.

Good change is when you finally decide to sweep under your bed or reorganize your room.
You later grow up to appreciate what you did and look back happily at what you have achieved.

Bad change is getting that haircut after 3 months and regretting it minutes, no seconds, later.
"OMG, WTF did I do to my hair!?"

Now that, is bad change.

***

Anyway, let's witness the Bernie Evolution cycle.

From THIS:

and THIS:

I daresay I was a cute toddler! [/ego moment]
to THIS: (in Secondary 2)
And today, to THIS!
Good or Bad?

YOU tell me!

2008-05-05T20:41:00.020+08:00

TODAY.

I'm in a holiday mood already. I'm screwed for final years if I don't snap out of it.

~~Three~~ TWO more weeks to holidays!

SUNDAY.

~~I'll blog later. Uploading the photos first.~~

Nat, LSE and myself headed off to Geylang East Library.

"WHY GEYLANG!? Why not Marine Parade Library!?"

"Because, there's this shop opposite the library that sells yummy fries,"

Right you are, Natalie. We were in the Siglap area, so we took a bus back to school and then caught 40 to Aljunied MRT and walked to the library.

***

LSE's head got too heavy for her neck so she had to place it on my shoulder.

***

And so, the bus finally arrived and we hopped on happily.

We're in the bus! I can't help but pose spastically for Natalie and she snaps this. (Yes, I know, my fringe is super short here, and I look uber ,umm, what do you call it? But nevermind.)

Natalie!

LSE draped her jacket over her face and slept. She looks like a Power Ranger to me, doesn't she?

***

We finally got to the fries shop! Natalie treated us to the "cum fries" this time. Thanks Nat!

LSE.

LSE showing off her new earphones.
The "CUM FRIES!" This is the shop we bought it from, if you want to know. It's directly opposite the library.
Natalie likes the fries!

***

All the fries can get people thirsty, you know? So I bought a Green Apple Ice Blended Bubble Tea and slurped it all down.

LSE then wanted one more of her own, and told me just to get something sour.

I did, Lemon. And then, LSE looks at me and says,

"I don't like lemon,"

And I stare at the bubble tea in hand.

"Oh, its...lemon,"

"Umm, nevermind,"

The infamous lemon bubble tea! It was nice, actually! Really refreshing.
See? I loved it so much Nat managed to take a picture of me posing with it.

Ahahaha. This picture was taken when I tried to snap a photo of myself and the bubble tea, but Nat took my phone from my hands whilst the camera was snapping, and viola! You get this!

The two bubble tea cups that we bought.
Natalie being trigger happy!

Natalie again. Any guys wanna chase her? Her number is 1800-I-MAY-LOOK-INNOCENT-BUT-I-WILL-KILL-YOU.
LSE is now too shy for the camera.
She tries to demonstrate her Olympic Gold Medal clapping feat.
Hmmph, she's not impressed that we didn't fall at out feet at her awesomeness.
Our stuff and someone's hand.

***

So Tiky came and joined us an hour or two later. Haven't seen her in AGES.

"I'm sorry Bernie, hugs and autographs are only from Monday to Friday. Weekends are my days off,"

Whilst walking back to my place, we saw this chick that fell to the ground and hurt itself.

Aww, the poor dear had blood on its wing and we stooped down to look at it. Nearby was this cat staring intently and the poor little shivering thing.

THE CAT.

Two aunties saw what we were doing and came over to look. They sighed when they saw the little bird and shook their heads. They promptly said this in Chinese.

"Aiyoh, poor bird, the cat will surely eat it,"

And then the other auntie chimed in,

"Someone use paper, wrap it up and bring home."

I stared. There was paper in my bag but there was no way my mom would let me bring it home. Therefore, we stared at the little chick a while longer before leaving it to its fate.

Does anyone know what happened to it?

***

Garfield, more commonly known as Tiky covering her face with a comic book.

***
Whilst walking over to my place, we passed by this:
It was hilarious, well, sort of an inside joke.

I'm sure LSE is very welcome there, as her banana sure is big enough.

LOL

***

So anyway, Nat and Tiky waited downstairs for me to dump my books at home and change before we all headed to Old Airport Road, the second floor (the dry market) to check out the band T-shirts on sale.

There was My Chemical Romance, Avenge Sevenfold, Fall Out Boy, Dragonforce, Metallica, Slipknot and many others. It's $15 a shirt.

Tiky got the Dragonforce one and the Bullet For My Valentine one which looked freakishly awesome.

Pictures!
Tiky
Nat
Nat and Tiky
Tiky staring at shoes
Nat

We sent Nat off as her Dad was getting her. Tiky hid from view because she was shy.
She curled up like this and told me it was very comfortable.

"It's warm Tiky,"

"Yea, that's why it's comfortable,"

"Ohhh,"

"My butt feels nice,"

***

Walked back to my place, Tiky had to pass by my house (of sorts) to get home anyway.

Saw this cat. It's coat is really nice but the photo couldn't capture that. D=

"THE MOTOCYLE'S EATING MY ASS!"

Lawl. And that concludes my Sunday.

***

Let's end this with a nice song. I've been hooked with this song ever since I heard it on the radio. The high bits are a pain in the arse to sing though.

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- Your Guardian Angel

2008-05-03T17:34:00.004+08:00

Okay, I'm redo-ing two quizzes because I was told to do so by a certain cute 'lil goldfish. I'm using the same set of 10 people for the two quizzes.

Sawa
LSE
Nat
Tiky
Justice
Jerome
Leon
Wenn
Audre
Jade

Who is number 6 having a relationship with? (Jerome)
Honestly, I don't have the faintest idea. Probably another fishy pal.

Is number 9 and Male/Female? (Audre)
FEMALE

If number 7 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing? (Leon and Jade)
First things first, they don't know each other and, how would I know? xD

How about number 8 and 5? (Wenn and Justice)
LOLOLOLOLOLOL. Sorry, I just couldn't help but laugh out loud. This is just too much of a coincidence, well, to me, that is. Those who were there at the library for the Sunday study session on 20th April 2008 will know.

But you know? I seriously cannot tell if relationships will work or not. =.= So I'm the horriblest person to ask about this!

What is number 2 studying about?(LSE)
Double pure science, Physics and Chemistry, Core Geography and Literature Elective.

When was the last time you had a chat with number 3? (Nat)
Sunday, 4th May o8. (This quiz is back dated, btw)

What kind of music band does number 8 like?(Wenn)
Chinese music? Jay Chou!

Does number 1 have any siblings? (Sawa)
Nope. She's the queen of her house.

Will you woo number 3?(Nat)
Natalie? My sexual orientation is straight, thank you very much, so therefore, No, I would not woo Nat.

How about number 7? (Leon)
...Coincidence, much?

Is number 4 single? (Tiky)
Hmm, yes, no, maybe? She did tell me she was attached though.

The surname of number 5? (Justice)
Yeo. You know, like that drink company?

What's the name of number 10?(Jade)
JADEY-KINS!

What's the hobby of number 4?(Tiky)
Being a kitsune warlord, writing and drawing furries.

Does number 5 and 9 get along well?(Justice and Audre)
From that one measly mass MSN conversation which they both happened to be in at the exact same time, I'd say no. All they did was say "Hi" from computer to computer. Hardly the warm greeting you'd get if you had met someone face to face.

Where is number 2 studying at? (LSE)
RI, yes, Raffles Institution.

Say something about number 1. (Sawa)
My lovable P6 Best Friend.

Have you tried developing feelings for number 8?(Wenn)
Of course I have....NOT. We do however enjoy comparing whip lengths and the strength of our handcuffs. We do also enjoy comparing rope burn scars.

Where does number 9 live at? (Audre)
She lives under my bed. No, I do not know where she lives.

Are number 5 and 1 best friends? ( Sawa and Justice)
Friends, yes. Best friends? I don't think so, unless something happened that I'm unaware of.

Does number 7 like 2? (Leon and LSE)
Guess so? LSE hasn't said anything mean about Leon to me and neither has Leon said anything mean about LSE to me.

Does number 1 have any pets? (Sawa)
She has two dogs, right?

***

Choose 10 people BEFORE doing the quiz.

Sawa
LSE
Nat
Tiky
Justice
Jerome
Leon
Wenn
Audre
Jade

Okay, you can do the quiz now...CHOOSE THE PPL FIRST!

1. Number 1 was really your mother? (Sawa)
WTF? Lol. Okay, life would be very weird.

2. Number 2 was who you were going to marry? (LSE)
LOL! LSE? Hahahahahaha. Cannot imagine, but she's be the guy with her big huge banana!

3. Number 3 got turned into a frog? (Nat)
Someone would kiss her and turn her back into Natalie.

4. You and number 4 got drunk and made out? (Tiky)
Ahahahaha. Hmm, everyone else would be too drunk to notice and we'd forget too!

5. You and number 5 woke up in the same bed and didn't remember how or why? (Justice)
WTF? I'd call the police. "Hello? Police? I'd like you to arrest Justice, now, please,"

6. Number 6 moved to the other side of the world? (Jerome)
=o For...real? (I bet he's lying)

7. You found out that number 7 is a man? (Leon)
He IS a man!

8. You caught number 8 in a polka-dotted thong? (Wenn)
That sounds like something LSE, Tiky or Sawa would do. Not Wenn!

9. Number 9 confessed their love for you? (Audre)
Yes Audre, I know you love me, but what would JN say?

10. Number 10 kissed you? (Jade)
In her dreams, maybe. Naw, that'd never happen.

11. Number 1 just started sniffing you? (Sawa)
I'd rather she sniff me than bite me, so its no big deal.

12. You found out that number 2 was doing drugs? (LSE)
NO F-ing WAY. LSE! STOP THAT NOW, OR GAARA-KUN DIES!

3. Number 3 could fly? (Nat)
That is SO not fair!

14. Number 4 was pregnant? (Tiky)
Umm, Tiky, who's the father?

15. Number 5 told you that they were never going to see you again? (Justice)
*cough* LIES *cough*

16. Number 6 ate YOUR cookie? (Jerome)
I'd eat HIS.

17. You and number 7 went to the zoo? (Leon)
Sounds fun. I wanna see the penguins!

18. Number 8 lied to you? (Wenn)
No biggie, she lied that she had Akira under her bed! =(

19. Number 9 turned into a coconut? (Audre)
NOOO!!!! Then I'd get over the initial grief and drink her up. xD

20. You and number 10 were deserted on an island? (Jade)
Sounds perfectly fine. =D But she'd go crazy first and I'd die of thirst.

21. You and number 1 went to the moon? (Sawa)
NICE~ Then I'd wish everyone could be there too. More the merrier! It'd get a bit lonely though.

22. Number 2 got a job? (LSE)
!!! Seriously? I wanna go bug her ("Gimme DISCOUNT~"). Oh and LSE, don't destroy anything on your first day!

23. Number 3 got hurt badly in an accident? (Nat)
Wait, how could that happen to Nat? She's superwoman.

24. Number 4 needed help with a problem but you were going out? (Tiky)
Urh, I'd help her, via sms I guess....Or call or something. I'd help, to the best of my ability.

25. Number 5 was sad? (Justice)
Umm, sms?

26. Number 6 was being a super-bitch? (Jerome)
He's just PMSing. It'll pass.

27. Number 7 was randomly in your house one morning? (Leon)
HE DOESN'T KNOW WHERE I LIVE.

28. You went to take a shower and 8 was in your bathroom?
(Wenn)
I KNEW IT! YOU LOVE PORN, DON'T YOU!?

29. Number 9 drank waayy too much at a party? (Audre)
Call a cab for her, or call JN or something.

30. Number 10 ran away from home? (Jade)
Come home, please? I'd help out with Rescue efforts.

31. Number 1 showed up at your window at 3 AM to escape their house? (Sawa)
I think it'd be the other way around.

32. You and 2 were walking down the street and saw an Eskimo? (LSE)
We'd point at him and laugh.

"So hot still dress up like Eskimo. Crazy."

33. Number 3 came to your house riding a llama? (Nat)
LOL. Nice Llama, Nat.

END.

2008-05-02T19:44:00.010+08:00

I think I should deface myself first to make all of you laugh at me. Because what I'm going to do next may cause scores of fan girls to come to my door and hang a pig head or two like a bunch of "ah longs".

So before you insist on scrolling down and viewing the heinous act I've committed, please proceed to laugh and guffaw at the following "blackmail pictures" of Bernie.

Bernie eating beef noodles like the ravenous bear she is
Bernie jumping and screaming like a crazed monkey. (Oh man, I miss my old house. D=)
Bernie trying her hardest to imitate Sir Stamford Raffles, and failing miserably.
Bernie making the most retarded of all faces at who else but the queen of spastic, LSE?

***

Disclaimer: All the following has been done because TIKY told me to. (Go ahead Bernie, and push ALL the blame to poor Tiky)

I HAVE THE EVIDENCE.Now you know. I've been tasked to photoshop the Jonas Brothers uglier, I presume, from the sounds of her tag. I, in no way, have any comments on the Jonas Brothers themselves.

So for Tiky, this is for you.

ORIGINAL
EDITED

The skills are horrible, and I don't know how to/don't want to go so far as to make them look like complete, complete, what was that term again? Monkeys? Hmm, I believe Monkey-arses would be a better term.

So for those who love the Jonas Brothers, don't hate me, TIKY asked me to do it.

(But I was the one who photoshoped them so...umm, nevermind, just blame her anyway.)

***

QUIZ!

Pick 10 random friends you feel comfortable around. 5 boys and 5 girls. Put yourself at Number 5.

Tch. The girls=no problem. Guys=problem.
Liao eh, I wanna add Tiky in! Rawr. =( Can I make Tiky a guy? Please please please?

(I ended up adding her in anyway)

1) LSE
2) Sawa
3) Nat
4) Wenn
5) Bernie
6) Leon
7) Justice
8) Jerome
9) Tiky
10) Aldy (RAWR, couldn't think of anyone to place here)

These eight people you just picked are stuck in a house with you for a whole year. There is no leaving the house at all until the year is completely up. If you had to choose a person for every question below, write down which person it would be.

There are four rooms, who would be in each room?

OH EM EFF GEE. Lemme try and decipher this. You know what? I'mma be nice and put the guys together and the girls together. It's a good thing I made Tiky a "guy".
RAWR.

room 1 - Nat and Tiky
room 2 - Justice and Leon
room 3 - Jerome and Aldy
room 4 - LSE and Wenn
room 5 - Sawa and Bernie

If there was someone singing in the morning who would it most likely be?
Me, Tiky, LSE, Jerome, Sawa, Justice and maybe Aldy too. I think a lot of people will start singing! LOL.

If someone was considered the dad and the mom of the house, who would it be?
Sawa= Mom of house.
Jerome=Dad.

That's just what I think, okay?

If you wanted candy really badly and all of the 10 in the house had some, who would you take it from?
LEON! Cause he wouldn't mind giving me some, now, would he? I could never take candy from Sawa though.

If someone had to watch you brush your teeth (every) morning, who would it be?
LSE. RAWR. I'd make her.

Someone's caught on the phone all hours of the night, who is it?
Wenn, because a certain someone would call her every hour. xD

There was two bags of chips bought at the store, but 20 minutes later they are gone. Who ate them?
Jerome, Me, LSE, Wenn, Tiky, Nat, Sawa. We'd just leave Aldy, Leon and Justice sulking in the corner. Nya nya.

Someones caught singing in the shower everyday at 2 o clock, who is it?
Me. xD

Who would hate being in the house the most?
Umm, I dunno. Really, I can't judge. Maybe Wenn or LSE?

Someone took a (brand spanking new) pair of socks that were never worn, who is the thief?
A guy, definately. Wait. LSE might steal it and use it as a banana. Oh noes.

Someone swept all the dirt under the rug, who was it?
Me, I'm damn lazy when I do housework. Probably the guys too, though.

If there was arguments in the house, who would be the ones arguing?
Sawa and urh...people, Justice and Jerome/Aldy,

Who would be the one missing there boyfriend/girlfriend that wasn't in the house with them?
Jerome.

You walked down stairs in the middle of the night for a glass of water, someone is dancing on the table in there Underwear who is the crazy one?
Sawa or Tiky

A pillow fight broke through, who started it?
Sawa, Tiky, LSE

Theres a marathon of your favorite tv show, what is it? And who would watch it?
Rawr. Anime/movies/dramas! EVERYONE. Cause I'd force them too, but I guess the guys might sit out, because they're...guys.

Someone made a fort in the laundry room: who was the kid?
Umm, Tiky or LSE...or...umm...Jerome?

There are 2 pranksters in the house that put plastic on the two toilets in the house, who are the pranksters?
LSE and Tiky or Sawa and someone else

The music's too loud: who turned it up?
Sawa or LSE or Me oh wait, and Tiky too. Tiky and her Dragonforce.

Theres a mouse crawling on the floor all over the house, who is the first one to scream? and who is the one to jump is someones arms? Who would be the one to kill it?
Me, in a dramatic attempt for attention I'd scream first. The jump in someone arm's thing, I'm not so sure. The one to kill it? Justice or Tiky, maybe. Or perhaps Aldy.

Someones crying, who is it and what happened?
Jerome. He broke a nail.

Who made pancakes in the morning and almost caught the house on fire?
Sawa.

Who gets sick of each other the fastest in the house?
Umm. This one I seriously have no idea.

Someones tanning on the roof, who is it?
Aldy, so he'll look more like an Indian, and become one of Jerome's kind.

Who is the tallest in the house?
Aldy. >.> Oh wait, maybe Leon. For the life of me, I can't recall who is taller.

Who is the shortest in the house?
Me. =(

Who is the loudest?
Sawa or Tiky

Who is the clown?
Jerome

Who is the most respectful?
Leon, duh.

Who is the one you go to talk to the most?
LSE, I suppose.

Who's in bed first?
Leon or Nat, those goody two shoes.

If someone woke everyone up with pots and pans who would it be?
Sawa or Tiky

Someone has the same sweater as you, so you get mad at them and who is it?
I wouldn't get mad at them, 'cause they probably bought it because it looked so sexy on me. Yes, I know, it's my very own /ego moment.

You spill ice all over the kitchen floor, who would be the one to slip on it first?
LSE, definately, urh, yeah. No offence, LSE.

A year is over, who cries when its time to say goodbye?
Me? I cry very easily remember? Or maybe Wenn too!

END.

2008-05-01T15:19:00.006+08:00

Happy Labour Day, everyone! No school and no work, this has to be the best holiday ever!

***

I promised I'd blog about the LIME Magazine feature so I'm going to do so today!

Well, the LIME Mag feature was fabulous, except for one small 'lil minute problem. Siti became a Hui Wen and Hui Wen morphed into a Siti.

Observe. Before the edit:

I decided that it'd be best to make Siti a Siti again and Hui Wen a Hui Wen again. Thus, with my magical photoshop skills, I edited the page!

If only I could instantly do so for all the other million or so (maybe less, maybe more!) copies sold in Singapore!

Like Nat likes to say, I have instant photoshop (okay, I wish I had it)!

The edited version:

***

Moving on, I'm sure some of you are wondering who is this person typing all this nonsense! It must be some old bugger with greying hair and smelly arm pits!

Thus, for those who've only known me recently or those who know nothing about me at all, I've decided to make it so much easier for all of you.

WHO IS BERNIE?

She's Bernadette, and she's the ripe age of 15 this year. Bernie was specially coined just for the purpose of easy communication with her.

Which would you prefer?

"Hey Bernadette!" or "Hey Bernie!"

She has a multitude of other nicknames, which range from Bern, to Barnie to Pervosaurus.

Her name means grim/fierce bear and according to her CCA trainer, she's lived up to her name by being all round noisy and oh-so-crazy. There hasn't been a Bernadette that she [the trainer, not Bernie] has met that wasn't loud and outgoing.

She's so crazy, she thinks she's Super~~man~~ woman and has super-strength.

Rawr, that's her all the way to the left.

And oh look! There she is again trying to lift the swing with her ~~amazing~~ arm power.

Bernie is so interesting, her friends can't help but follow her everywhere she goes, and snap pictures of everything she does as they find it utterly fascinating.

Even when she's guzzling down Chicken Rice like all hungry bears do.

And even while she's deep in silent concentration.

Bernie likes to stand out from the crowd. She doesn't like blending into the background and being left unnoticed. She likes to make crazy gestures or do something insane that makes people stare, gape or laugh at her.

She likes the attention.
And while everyone was smiling nicely at the camera, she had to go and break the conformity by putting on the most unique face ever. The "OMG LOOK AT ME!" look that she's perfected after ~~years~~ minutes of practice.

And like every girl out there, she has to update herself or she'll just be old and boring. Which is why, once in a blue moon, she does something so drastic no one sees it coming.

For example, just recently she cut her hair. No, she didn't trim it.

She got it cut from THIS length

To THIS short length in the span of one day. She went to school on Tuesday with long hair and poof, by Wednesday her hair was THAT short.

Her friends were blindsided and it hit them like a tidal wave.

That's Bernie for you.

Bernie in one word?

Spastically Unique.

Oh wait, that was two.

Because no one word can describe who Bernie is.

2008-04-30T16:29:00.009+08:00

Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

***

Tee hee! Played MSN Riversi with Justice.

I got PWNed, then I PWNed him before I got beaten 22-40. =(

Not epic pwnage, but I still lost. Rawr.

EVIDENCE!

Checkers after that, and I got pwned too. EPIC PWNAGE. =(

***

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

School today was like, so blah. I was so sleepy the whole day, in no mood at all to pay attention in school.

P.E. was okay, watched my classmates jump over a wooden box and sat there stoning. Literature after that was "RAWR, I WANNA SLEEP" mode and I was reading my own library book.

A Math was considerably okay, thanks to the air condition in the IT Resource Room.

Recess was "OMG, FINALLY!" Thank goodness for it.

I was uber hungry.

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

After recess was...E Math. In the library so it was okay. I didn't understand bearing, I just sorta get it now. I'm so not in a studying mood.

History was a huge huge drag. I was sleeping for most of the lesson which translates to Bernie-is-screwed. I literally was sleeping on my textbook, notes forgotten and uncared about.
So I didn't hear about the summary of the possible SEQ questions about Germany. Darn.

Chemistry wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. Watched the Chem project videos, slacked and then turned off completely when the teacher blabbered on about The Mole Concept.

Yada yada.

Boring.

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

After school was when it got considerably interesting. Jade, Jing Yi, N.J., LSE and I went to Parkway for lunch. All of us got beef noodles except for LSE who guzzled down Chicken Rice.
Rawr, Jade took a photo of me eating my beef noodles. xD

Tsk tsk.

Went back to school for Infocomm, Jade made this game of "shooting Bernie heads". RAWR.

I'll post the link here: DevArt Link

It's addictive, I tell you.

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

Infocomm was blah, can't wait for Mr Sng to finally get back and we work on filming.

Had a "mini fight" of sorts with Leon. =\ Shan't elaborate.

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

I'm accompanying my mom tomorrow for a photoshoot so I'm not going for Rays tomorrow morning. Hmm. I'll need to think of excuses the next time I want to go out.

Who's up for "cum fries" the next time I go to the Geylang East Library to return my library books? I think it's my turn to treat this time!

Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

Mass convos are fun, except when everyone goes dead.

I dread getting my mid year results and I miss staying at home to slack all day long.

I miss Deli.

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday